blogging to my future

Rare update! lol...

2007-07-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

Been another long long time since i last blog...there's really too many things that have happened and i really dun have the time to blog all of them down. Just a short summary of the major events that took place over the last few months...

May: Meijun's bday (thou celebrated in april)

June: My Birthday Party!! XD (Super alot of ppl! enjoyed it thoroughly! and of cos....the gifts were great as well! love em all!!)Thanks to all who were here!!
This year's june me and darling treat each other to the BIG MEAL on 24th june. i treat him to Imperial Garden Chinese Restaurant (got lobster, shark fin, veggie, sea coconut w/ almond jelly and cod fish!) heez...then at night he treated me to Sushi Kikuzawa! Best sashimi i've ever eaten. but the price to pay was really high too. 2 person for $110!! plus i got rashes on my neck after that..haha but really worth the great taste!
...and also not forgetting phy and bernard's combined bday aprty and also the swiss gathering at Marche! =D

July: SDE FOC (in fact i just came back from it) Overall think my OG nt really one of those who are super enthu de but enjoyed the camp still lar. just think that it could have been better if my OG members could be more enthu. and hope they'll join RAG as well. will be quite disappointed to see none of them in RAG. one advice i would give to everyone who goes to camp. esp such orientation camp, just go and be crazy and mad!!u'll make lots of great new friends. and my advice to ppl who goes to this type of camp and everything also dun wanna try: jus stay home and watch TV or play computer games cos the camp would be even more fun without u around.; Another big event is Darling's birthday!! (went sakae sushi with him ytd and saw jonathan(my OG member whose birthday is the same as darling! such a coincidence!)

Since so many big events took place, it would take me a long long time to blog them all. guess i'll jus leave them in my memory..haha...talking about memory...my memory have been failing me...alot of things i cant remember. even things that just took place, say yesterday, i also can forget!alot of things need my darling to remind me. Darling's da best!! *bet he'll say "OF COURSE!"* lol...simply loves him....

ok since i so long din blog le. i started browsing my sister's blog and saw this and tot i could do it to make my entry longer?lol...

Part 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Wei juan
Date of Birth: 21st June 1986
Current Status: Attached
Eye color: black (dark brown)
Hair color: Black (but sometimes brown...i also duno =X)
Righty or Lefty: Righty ( i should be lefty if my mum din change me when i was young.
Zodiac Sign: Gemini + Cancer

Part 2: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: Chinese & Cantonese
Your fear: Not appreciated. Being maligned.
Your weakness: No confidence. Impatient. Can't lead.
Your perfect pizza : Hawaiian Pizza (Loves mushroom and pinapples!)

Part 3: Yesterday,Today and Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Darling!!
Tomorrow: Work
Your bedtime: Darling!!
Your most missed memory: Pri sch life with mei jun around to crap with me after school everyday. i love the feeling of having a company whom u know she'll be there with u no matter where u go or do...

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: None. dun like gas-sy drink =/
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King if i have to choose one. but i still prefer Long John follow by KFC! =D
Single or group dates: for relationship - single date! for frenz - group date!
Adidas or Nike: Nike. i think their designs are nicer. but some people told me they use child labor then i abit shaken =X
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!!
Cappuccino or Coffee: Prefer mocha!haha..

Part 5: DO YOU..
Smoke: Tried before when i dun even know that's call a cigarette...lol...
Curse: Definitely but never in vulgarities!

Part 6 : IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: Hmm...yea i guess...champagne consider right?lol..
Gone to the mall: Of cos...just went AMK Hub today for subway breakfast as well as lunch (2 diff meals k...thou same place...haha....ALONE! =/)
Eaten Sushi: Of Cos!!
Dyed your hair: Never before

Part 7: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 minute ago: Blogging
1 hour ago: Just came back from tuition (reach there, he told me he forgot so i came back...thinking i can rest earlier as well =D)
A month ago: i have short term memory...should ask darling about this...
1 year ago: wah...totally cannot remember....think is the day after celebrating darling's bday lor...lol...or maybe went stadium to watch the national day("family day" tickets) with darling and my parents if it was on the 8th july =X

Part 8: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I love: my darling!!! and family too!
I feel: irritated now with my neck rash and leg's flesh split. =(
I hate: it when my effort is not appreciated or when someone say things that are not true about me.
I hide: i dun really hide anything. lidat i dun feel so burden.
I miss: my darling....very much.....very very much......
I need: food!!!!!

Part 9 : TAG 5 PEOPLE
wat does this means???lol....

ok lar...that's all for now!

Gonna get so busy...

2007-04-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

Exams are nearing...gonna get so busy soon...this term's modules ar...the teachers very strict sia...no hints de =( lol...thou wat they are doing is right but no hints is really sad...maybe cos we too use to hints le...haha...today very fulfilling...2 reports in day...so shoik! all cleared...but things might not be as smooth yet...tml is 2105 presentation...maybe after tml still got alot of things to alter...anyway dun care le...tml if die then change more lor...haha...

Recently got this tot of keeping a diary sia...as in physical one...one which really can write everything i feel...but how can i make sure that everything inside will only be known to me lei??ltr my sis open how?ltr mum open how?and worst~!!!!...if my MAID open how?!!? -_- sian ji bua...wah...really dislike her more and more...sianz~!!!today i ask her vacuum a place which she missed out....she even say i was blocking her way so she nvr vacuum!!! then somemore when i moved away and asked her to vacuum...she even STARE (those that can pick up a fight in the gangster world de) at ME!!! wat the....she owner or me owner sia!!! she always got all sorts of reason to cover her backside one!hurmp!!hate her to the max!!! and gosh!!!i still got 1 yr and around 7mths plus with her!!!!!argh!!!!!!i hate ppl like her type....always so fake!!!even her smile is soooo fake!plus worst is she is those that do wrong thing dun confess de!! that time she went to flip my parents income tax...duno for wat reason but i spotted her and yet she can say she din flip and din see anything...then stupidly after seeing me dun believe her + i told her ill tell my mum (i know i quite stupid also...shldnt let her know i telling mum) then she confessed that she went to flip those documents but she dun understand a word of it...wat is there to understand when it's all numbers???how fake!!and who will believe that she dun understand when her previous job in indonesia was insurance agent!!! how can she duno?!?! faker....hate ppl like her....

i am sooo pissed with her....usually only backstabbers (who are also fakers) and ppl who say things without going thru their conscience (anyhow malign ppl one) will make me hate them....in fact i despise them!!!hurmp!!!

some thoughts...

2007-04-01T09:54:00.000+08:00

haha...at my bf's house again...lol...he helping me convert my videos (hopefully sucessful) from quick time to wmv format...if cannot then die le...stupid window movie maker...why cannot read quick time...microsoft powerpoint also!hurmp! y muz they lidat fight with each other...dun they know that it's consumer who lose out the most???!!!! sian lor...fei and my video cam both have quicktime output then now cannot edit with movie maker...and worst...cannot input into powerpoint!! aargh!!!stupid!!!!

anyway that's nt the main thing i wanna blog about....actually a few days ago...i have this tot of ending this blog...had this training session and was reminded of one thing....anyone u duno can actually come to your blog...read about it save it and in future may use it against u...suddenly makes me feel so insecure to vent frustrations or anything in blog...i also heard that even if you've made ur blog private...people will still be able to go into your blog...so scary...im not sure how long i'll still be maintaining this blog but since im still blogging here, i shall try my best to avoid some sensitive topics and naming names...this issue have been brought up because one of my fellow colleague blogged about his/her work on his/her blog...then used some very obscene language...then management saw it and was not very happy about it...maybe that person really went too far but i still think we can blog about our work bah...just mind your language and not identify the specific company and specific incident with all the specific names...haha...imagine you r those daily blogger and your whole day is at work today and you cannot blog anything about it...thats sad man...lol...

ok...another case...i dun understand y some ppl can grow so old le and still be a very petty soul. wat i mean by old is like 40+? and it's like half their life gone le yet they can still sulk for days over ppl not helping them. the thing is when he ask me for help, im really busy. y is he so unreasonable????stupid lor....cant he see how many things i've done for him???i dun understand lor...i tot ppl grow old liao, after seeing more things, should be more open-minded...sianz...then he can dun talk to me for days!!!!!!!!even when i thicken my skin and go talk to him, he can just ignore me!!!wah lao....really angry....how can someone so old be so unreasonable!!!!y he can keep ignoring me when i talk to him?????wah lao.....sian!!!!somemore live under same roof...the feeling is sooooo awkward!!!!!hate it man....ytd talked to my sis about it...she told me he's like that de....she got a tv incident with him also....then he ignore her for weeks!!!! and i find this so childish!!!!! got once when me and mum was preparing bday cake for my brother....he wanted my youngest sis to help too but she playing her last round in game so can't stop...then he go and close her light....omg....give me the impression that "if i have to do it...u have to do it too" like those childish kid who mind to do a bit more job in anything lor....everytime say we only know how to play game and duno how to contribute to the home....wat the...my youngest sister have been working every weekend to help earn some income...2nd sis doing 2 jobs....thou now her holiday but still she is trying her best to help lor...and everyday slog so hard jus to heard him say that we are doing nothing to help!!wat the....and me lei....i take up 2 tuition...work in sch and work in my aunt's company...all i get is also din contribute to the home....i duno y im doing all these for....he think studying is really as simple as ABC???y muz i do his stuff that will easily take up an hour of my time when my project is dueing???then after i submitted that project, got a lil bit of time to play game...then he have to think that stupid way of me no time to help him but got time to play game....stupid lei....ppl explain....he dun wan to heard....so stubborn and so childish man!!!!gosh.....haiz......case end here....dun wanna talk about it anymore....

yesterday night went to some block party with my mum, sis and bro...actually im jus attracted to go becos of food....haha....then at night when we return home...i asked my mum to go buy champedak!!!omg...so long nvr eat le...then jus nice the pasar malam got sell...haha....then my sis saw durian so end up bought both...the durian super ex...one box $15!!in the end after some bargaining...it became $18 for 2 box...suddenly felt like im in thailand sia....if din bargain then we are being slaughter!lol...then nt very nice somemore...my champedak worse!!!!$5 for one champedak....i spent so much effort in opening it then end up inside only SIX SEEDS!!!!!OMG!!!!!so expensive lor!!!!!i remember the last time i really very heng to bought one champedak at $4.50 and inside got 22 seeds of fruit...so rare....now i know...oh yar...i muz go and read up on how to choose champedak so that next time can buy one that's more worth it...haha....my mum very hiong sia....last night after she saw that SIX seeds she immediately say wanna go back and scold the person whom she trusted to help us choose...that seller also suay lar...haha....then i went back with her and then we got back a dollar and another box of durian!!!lol....mum best!haha...

ok lar...going out for food le..hungry man....now 11 le and still haven eat breakfast.... =X

Human r simple? why aint i?

2007-03-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

Looking at my previous post...there seems to be many things i left out...the tissue box cover i gave him...so cute...i also forgot to take a photo of it....hmmm...that tissue box cover...gave him le then realised it's a wrong choice of gift...i think i was too obsessed with choosing things concerning pigs and cows such that i forgot his allergy to dust....to me...i was thinking: he uses tissue very often...so get him a tissue box cover is the best! cos whenever he take tissue from the tissue box...he will have to think of me....arh....but i forgot...that soft-toy-like tissue cover could accumulate dust and eventually the tissue he take out from there will be dusty as well...aiyo...blur me lor....hais...duno why everytime when i try to do something to its best....something muz go wrong to make me feel incompetent de...wat's up with me man...

i use to believe that life is always fair...when u experience something good...u'll experience an equal amt of bad things as well...but why muz all my bad things be linked to my good things??? isn't there anything that have only good and no bad?

today...woke up late!!it's a short day....jus 2 hr of lesson....got a long day to rest for me...i shld wake up at 8...leave at 9 and reach sch at 10 for the lab class...end up....9:38 then woke up...rush up rush down....9:50 left hse le....ain't i fast! cannot decide if i shld take taxi....then in the end nvr take....reach sch at ard 10:45....they finished doing 2 out of 3 experiments le....kindof feel left out cos i din participate....i know it's my fault....and y the hell i cant wake up on time...???!

then after the experiment...went club room with carol...see if her dear can make it for lunch with her....if nt then can ask her be my lunch mate...haha...but too bad....din wanna be light bulb also...being a light bulb is one of the thing i hate most....=( then jus when i decided to go home and eat ta bao food...yay...saw jun han....ask him company me go eat....then waited for him to go print his tutorial for his class later....then went techno edge....end up reach there....so many ppl...so still ta bao in the end....-_- nvm...at least got company...if come home have to face my maid...and brother....i'll sure feel super irritated de....nowadays my parents are always busy with their sunrider career....even now...they are out for sunrider classes....i know they are working hard to earn more money for the family....but nowadays they dun really have time for us anymore...for my case...it may be my fault cos i have too many activities, sch and work going on....but my brother?jus on sunday...i purposely ask my mum if my brother's test is the next day....she got to hesistate for quite some time before telling me yes....and the "yes" was not even with confidence.....my dad....always indulging my bro with games and play thing....sometimes i wonder if he cares about his studies...how come he can always dun get him to study....i really dun understand....is it because he feel that young boys are lidat de(play while he can then study can pass can liao)....or he feel that my brother can score flying colors even without studying? the fact is...when he was in primary 2....he can already fail his subjects.....which i really duno how he did that...i think he is spoilt by my dad le....everytime he din do well...my parents would say i never teach him well....how come all the responsibility land on my shoulders when he is jus my brother?? doesnt parents have any part to play????how would my brother ever sit down and study when im the only one who's asking him to do that???? if im a kid...my parents dun really ask about my homework....then this stupid sister keep asking me to study study study......i'll also chose to ignore her words and continue playing....cos i know my parents will back me up if anything happens....i really give up le....i dun feel like spending anymore effort in teaching him....not even abit....the more i teach....the more dishearted i am....haiz.....these few days is his test....CA1...nowadays i see him watch tv....play computer....i feel so much like scolding him.....he keep thinking he is very old and can run his own life le....argh....but what is he doing????sometimes i even hope that he will do very very very badly for this time round's test such that he will learn his lesson.....shucks!

today when having meal with jun han outside club room at one of the tables...we chatted here and there....somehow i realise quite abit about myself....even thou this is my blog....im nt even truthful to it....there are many things in me....all hidden....deeply inside me....that no one knows....i cant face alot of things....im jus running away....avoiding everything that is to my disadvantage....many times i wan to be truthful...but because of my selfishness....because i scare to lose things that belongs to me...i kept them in my heart....last time....in my world...there is only right or wrong....i would do all the right things and avoid all the wrong things.....duno since when....right and wrong no longer have a clear line to separate them....i still dun have the courage to face many wrongs i've done....and everyday im commiting more wrongs....i think if im a christian....i would be those called "sinner" bah....i used to be a very simple person....but as i grow up....i came across more things....more things which i know yet i cant say....helping ppl keeping secrets....helping myself keep secrets....the burden is really heavy....also...maybe im a coward....many things....many unhappiness in me....might be able to be solved if i had jus say them out when they happened....yet i chose to keep quiet....i dun like arguements...i dun like to confront people....so the things i dun like just happen again and again....my tolerance level is dropping....but im unable to let it out either....i duno the consequences....im not confident at all...and i dun do things im not confident in....maybe becos im scare of failures....i begin to hate myself more and more....because...im no longer the weijuan who can face everything truthfully.....

V-Day Post

2007-03-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

This post is late by almost 2 weeks!!! omg...haha...mainly because im quite tied up nowadays...tired...and yesterday even worse....dishearted....haiz...really duno wat to do about my lil brother...that feeling....sux....shall not talk about this since this shld be a happy happy post...

Anyway had a great v-day celebration this year with darling...it's the first v-day we had after we got together...and also our 1 year anniversary...darling was especially nice to me during the v-day period sia...not say now not nice lar..but nicer during the vday period...lolz...i remember last year v-day we both still nt together yet...but that day was very memorable...cos we also got together on that day itself....it was the first proper v-day dinner we had together...his gift...a photo album of our past...most valuable gift to me now...and not forgetting the thing he did nt too long before that was also touching to the max....ok...back to now....haha...we did 2 things...which brings back 2 sweet memories...2 same thing with a difference of 1 year...the v-day celebratoin & the esplanade fireworks...both brings back great memories...haha....last year's v-day was at swensen...haha...the feeling was nervous + nervous....cos im dating this guy who's not my bf on valentine's day...lol...it was also my first ever v-day dinner with anyone!!lol...that day, he went to pick me up from my house then we causeway point together...queued for very very long with our rumbling stomach before we got our seats...haha...then last year firework...also went together when we were not together....the feeling of going again this year...thou nt as great as last year...maybe cos we got to rush off right after the firework(i understand dear...but cant help feeling "not as good as last year" but it's still good!...not to worry =D)...both year was good...jus last year better...haha...

This year v-day celebration was on sunday...3 days prior to the actual day...cos we predict that that day will surely have alot of ppl trying to find a place to eat + will be more expensive...so we went gallery by the straits on sunday...firstly to avoid the crowd....secondly im working on the actual v-day...so paisei...haha...

Firstly on sunday...
Met darling at 12noon...he came to my house...went shopping with me and sisterzz til ard 5plus...poor darling...haha...think it's his first time shopping with so many girl bah...can see the tiredness on his face yet no complaints...haha...so thankful...before the shopping even start...he treat we all to pizza hut!! haha..wana "buy over" my sisters...lol...funny sia him...then we went separate ways with my sisters for our long-planned dinner...a place with great view...shall let the pictures speak...hee...the food was great as well...haha!! everything was great!!lol..

Next on wednesday itself...the actual v-day...
Worked from 8-5:30pm...then jus before i leave...darling sms me to leave later cos he's still stucked in his base...bt cos i cant work as and when i wan...i packed to leave the workplace...when i was about to leave...my aunt(the receptionist of my company) called my workstation...say got something to pass to me...im like blurred...bt cos it's nt very unusual so i went to punch card and went to the reception...and to my surprise...many were crowding around this bouquet of flower...then my aunt say:"eh..this one for u." then i was wondering:who went flower arrangement class then dun wan their bouquet of flower? lol....im sooooo wrong...it was from him....lol...made a fool of myself...haha...i was sooooo paisei...yet with happiness gushing in me...lol...at first i tot it's from some flower arranging lesson becos my colleague serene was having this flower arrangement class not too long ago and quite a number of ppl participate..haha...so made me confused....and also never expect darling to give me flowers also...and most of all....to my company!!omg...he dun even know where's my workplace is situated lor!!lol...super surprised...super happy...then went to meet him at yishun north point...soooooo he bluffed me about being stucked in base...he jus wanna delay me from leaving the office...haha...cos the flower delivery was delayed....lol...and the most exaggerating thing is that it was late by 3.5 hour...lol...after i met him, we had a simple dinner at yishun food court...i think im too overwhelmed with happiness liao...haha...not hungry lor....so only buy a bowl of fish slice soup...then went for the movie "just follow law"....funny funny...got luff...got tears...great show....typical jack neo's show...haha...then after that went to sembawang's sun plaza for cheesecake...we exchanged our gift...then he sent me home...everything was perfect....haha...perfect day....filled with lots and lots of happiness!!!haha!!below are some photos to help me give a clearer picture of everything i've said...hee...muackz to darling!

Our v-day dinner on sunday....look at the spread of food!!!woah!!!...and not forgetting the 2 sweet coconut...haha...

my incomplete v-day prezzie for him...all hand-made clay thingy...haha...make til my hand's infection came back sia....big sacrifice!!haha...jus kidding...forgetful me forgot to take a picture of the completed work!!argh!!lol...

My prezzie from him...first DKNY watch....guess it's the most expensive thing on my body nowadays...haha...such an exquisite watch...everytime i wear also scare of spoiling it...omg...haha...

That surprise bouquet!

last but not least....the mini-card for my wallet...hand-made by him...sweet...hee...the background & pic were both taken at where we had our v-day dinner...haa...so sweet so sweet!!

--juan...going to slp...filled with happiness jus by recalling wat happened...hee--

happy happy post!

2007-02-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

Haha...purposely come and blog second time today cos darling is sooooo sweet....i jus love it when he does things secretly and eventually i'll find out that kind...of cos muz be sweet things lar...if bad things i think i'll bash him up! (violent violent *haha*) ok now for the thing he did:

he went into my ivle account and set a reminder in my organiser on our 1yr anniversary (which is v-day itself) and left a mini message...he's sooooo sweet!!love him to bits!!haha...

he say he did that long ago...aint me blur?haha...muz be the side effect of hanging out too much with blurcow! hee...

and hor...remember that newspaper collection day...my pants tore!!!finally can upload the pic...here it goes...

haha...so pai sei that day...luckily got jia wei's big big shirt to cover it as i walk! thanks lao da...haha...and thanks joseph for bringing and extra pants (thou too big..haha...) to let me change into temporarily...

oh yar...and here's the donut factory's donut which darling queued 2 and a half hour with me...haha...

they are damn nice!!!!haha....

tml's v-day celebration! yay!!

2007-02-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

Tml's the long-waited v-day celebration...haha...as this year's celebration is during a weekday so we are celebrating it in advance on a Sunday(tml)...then on actual day shall jus go for a simple dinner...hee...happy happy...wonder what good plan is darling coming up with tml...looking forward to see him early early...best is the moment i woke up!thou i know nt quite possible...haha...

yesterday went to a talk...on man & woman...titled "men are like waffles and women are like spaghetti"...it's a very interesting talk by a couple "bill and pam" they have been married since 1987 til now...raised 3 kids and have very successful relationships in the family..they talked about the differences between man and woman...the way they put it across is very interesting with some experience from their daily life...the talk was humorous and lively...if gt chance to go again with darling i sure go one!haha...it's organised by SDU for tertiary students and they encouraged us to get married early and so on...promoting long lasting relationships...i feel that such talks are really interesting to us(tertiary students) because we are in the stage that all these issues are very appealing...haha...after understanding more about relationships, many tots went thru my mind...but there's one thing i understood from yesterday: to a man, the relationship is good until we girls destroy it by overwhelming him with all the relationship issues...anyway they usually dun think alot about is there any problem with their relationship, however girls are constantly processing the status of their relationship...so the point here is: darling pls dun blame me for thinking too much cos it's jus in girls...and the point to all girls out there: do not blame ur bf for not thinking whether is there any problems with the relationship becos they are really dumb...lol...as in they wun keep thinking about their relationship because they process their life in boxes just like waffles and relationship is jus one of the boxes..and in order for them to move on in life...they cannot keep thinking about the thing in that box, otherwise...they cant do anything else...haha...it's really not that they dun care about the relationship...yea...

yesterday darling did a very sweet thing...maybe to some people it's already something taken for granted but to me, it's something that really brightens up the remaining of my day...darling called me right after my class to company for dinner before the talk...it's really sweet of him to do so...such a pleasant surprise...im loving him more and more! *shy shy* haha...

the day before yesterday went to chinatown with clx2 and jo after work...in hope to get some new year clothing end up all i bought home was food!!argh...haha...i wanna slim down more before new year!!!hurmp!!bought yam paste, chocolate with real fruit(strawberry), chocolate beancurd!!!omg!!haha...

went tuition today...i feel that my students are getting more and more "lan san" as in like do things very easily say duno duno...aiyo...haven even think hard lor....and i muz ask and ask then they'll show that they know...sometimes abit frustrating...bt still ok now...duno wat will happen in future sia...haha...god bless me...lol...

now listening to the audio cd that i bought from the talk yesterday...$10...alot of those visual image came back...haha...same talk...same examples...still very funny...haha...also bought the book titled "single men are like waffles and single women are like spaghetti" @ $12...so total spent $2(on the talk) + $10 + $12 on the talk thing...haha...bt if it brings in alot of benefits to our relationship skills i guess it's worth it...haha...

Sianz...

2007-02-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

Mood now actually quite depressed...feel abit useless...and my leg is still aching...just now spent the whole evening shopping for v-day present...argh...irritating...so vex over this...walked the whole of bugis and then to bishan..still no idea of what to give...doesnt feel good about anything...super irritating...today saw yenni and fei doing their v-day present...one mth ago benedict already thinking of wat to gif...now only left 2 more weeks and still i duno wat to give..i hate myself man...how come everyone seems to know what they wan to give and i have no idea at all????im really having a bad headache...im quite stressed over this...feel so useless man...last time de me not lidat de...remember i used to have alot of ideas...still remember the v-day 2 years ago...the present idea jus came naturally....now i think sooooo hard and nothing comes to my mind...have so many worries on my mind...it's gonna be my first v-day gift for him after we got together...it's also gonna be our 1st year anniversary...it's such a important day...im so worried that the gift i choose is jus nt good enuff...nothing fits in the ocassion lei....what should i do....sianz.............!!!!!!

today haven eat dinner yet cos came home too late then dun feel like eating her cooking...then actually wanted to eat maggi mee one but think too late...haiz...then this morning skipped breakfast also cos woke up too late...that makes the chicken rice in the noon as my only meal of the day...im nt in any kind of slimming programme sia...how come i eat so little!!!grrr....!!!really no appetite recently...where's that tan chi wei juan....haiz...

today was very blur...tot the talk on "single man are like waffles and single woman are like spaghetti" is today...so inform my mum that i cant company her to buy the new year deco le...then i call and msg and ask those going on where they meeting and so on...end up fei helped me realised that it's next friday...arh!!then called mum again to tell her to wait for me to buy the new yr deco with her...then last min feel like getting a v-day gift...then end up call AGAIN to ask her nt to wait...i'm so ma fan!!!

im so very very tired now...feel like sleeping...tml gt to go teach tuition and after that go do newspaper collection for one of the fund raising event...think i shld go slp le...and hope last night's nightmare wun happen in real life and also hope that i dun get that dream again!sleep!

busy~ busy~ busy~

2007-01-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

Realised i have make myself so busy that i'm kinda tired...since school start...i have been continuing my work + UCC ushering + Tuitioning...did nt do much homework...basically till now there is no homework for me to do...only got econs and one essay writing due next week...haven really go and read that article...i hate english...now even have to do literature review on a 10 pages article + more readings...sux...tml going to work again...however nt going tkd le...cos sister's bday tml so muz come home for dinner....i'll miss tkd + the gang....the after-trg supper...awww...will miss quite alot of laughters this week....eeeewww....

ytd went darling's home to do inspection...haha...actually jus went there see see the new design of his room...but....really feels the same...oops...haha...but before that he came down to NUS and we had lunch at the long-waited japanese restaurant @ YIH...but no more teriyaki chicken teppanyaki!!im soooooo disappointed....now i wouldn't rate it 5/5 le...so sad...carol and sydney also joined us...she very cute ar...haha...on our way there she and him hold hands and show me...lol...cos she say last time whenever simon come school find me...the moment we meet sure hold hands de...then the last 2 times she very shy shy...haha...so now she muz hold his hand and show simon sia...haha...i know she joking lar...bt very cute...lol...then after that went his house...actually his room really look almost the same...except now got mirror for me! lol...my mum often say i look into the mirror so often that it's cracking...and one bad thing at darling's house is that the whole house dun have any mirror!!that's very torturous for a person who like to look into the mirror so much...haha...hmmm...now got the mirror...the new big long table...and the new shelves...the next thing he'll change is his bed bah...haha....but darling is so poor recently...make me feel like a burden sia...bt recently i get to pay for my own meal...so hope it'll help him lighten some load bah...

last sunday met darling at city hall...going for the soup spoon...haha...have been yearning to have it...but after having it...realised it's not really that nice...but jia ai say cannot drink their chicken soup one...cos me and him both drink chicken soup...his one chinese style while mine is chicken mushroom...haha...both not very good comments...haha...jia ai say should have drank their veggie soup...bt after that bad meal i doubt i'll go back there in the near future...haha...however their sandwich was nt bad...quite nice...we were both too full to have it at the restaurant so we packed it...actually the sandwich was his...but give me eat...haha...too bad he no kou fu =P lol...oh yar...did i mention darling queued 2 and a half hour with me jus to get donuts from the "donut factory"???haha...it's the first time im doing something so crazy...cant believe it...the first time i queued sooooo long for something and that something actually happens to be FOOD...lol...guess my life cannot live without "food"...not say those daily necessary meals but food that people can do without with...such as chocolates, cakes, desserts, etc...omg...i can really see myself turning 60kg man...lol...that day saw my manager while queuing for the donuts...helped her bought one box of 12 for her family and a box of six for the company people...in the end bought 3 box of 12 and one box of six...so darling bought 1 box of 12 for his family...and he ate 4!!!amazing...darling...i think u'll reach my manager's pattern before me man...even with the constant reminder that i cannot grow fat!...im still gaining more and more weight!...my plan for now is to drink at least 1 packet of the sunrider's lemon tea every 2 days...muz get rid of watever oil inside me...haha...that day went to cl's hse after the queuing cos i was nt in time for the roller blading session...heard that jade fell quite badly...hope she's alright le...then at cl's house gor teaching bee guitar...then bee asked me bout simon's progress in learning his guitar...i also dunno wat to say...haa...duno how's he doing also...no updates at all...and blur me always forget to ask..bt think nt as good as her yet bah...she really fast learner sia...pei fu pei fu...that day gor and bee both got play guitar...i tot only guys play guitar make them look very attractive...never did i imagine...bee play guitar that time also very attractive sia...very very cool somemore....so xie mu....as for me...i wanna learn bt always too lazy...always find excuses to this and that and end up din learn much...haiz...that's something bad about me...nt really determine in doing things de....alamak...when can i learn from this....

sometimes i really feel that im like super woman sia...maybe it's a way to stop myself from slacking...whenever i have too much free time...i'll slack...i love sleeping...but if i sleep more...the more i wan to slp....haha...i'll slp in lectures too man....nowadays after i flood myself with endless work...i am able to stay awake in lectures le...i hope i can maintain this wherever i am...my current company usually have those trainings and talks for the employees...so scare that next time the company i work for also have such talks...sometimes i wonder...wat if the company sent me to some safety talk and i fell asleep...wah...that would be very dangerous man...haha...cos the 9pm show is about those projects management de job....then i imagine next time if i also get involve in such projects....siao liao....cannot be so lethargic anymore!haha...

alrite some updates bout today...basically is work whole day...(oops...darling jus called...bt since both of us busy with our things...he reading im blogging...then end the call le...so sudden sia...so shocked when he say "then we talk tml lor" guess he muz be busy...ok...continue my blog...maybe later call him to say good night or wat...)then got sudden craving for cheesecake...so went sun plaza after work...to buy their 50% off cheesecake...reached at ard 1754...then the counter staff told me 6 more mins before the 50% discount starts...so i went walk walk ard and shop for my sister's bday gift...tml lei...haha...last min shopping...then as i was looking for her presents...went looking ard for v-day gift also....duno wat to give lei...(darling...u r nt supposed to react to this k...dun scold me har!!)really still dun have any ideas yet...v-day in 2 more weeks and here i am still clueless of what to get...wonder if he is in the same situation...hmmm...anyway...shop shop shop...then got a shirt for her...tml then give her...then jus now for dinner...ate abit of rice, fish and veggie...really abit cos feel like dinner nowadays at home is really getting from bad to worse...dun feel like eating anymore....luckily my sister cooked omelette...remember the last time i ate it was gor cook de...the day he went army...haha...morning went his house...then he cook omelette for me...first time eat home-cooked omelette..haha...his dad asked me how was the omelette..then i realised he never even cook for them before...feel so honoured sia...his darling no kou fu...overslept..so end up we went her hse to pick her up instead...ok...back to now...comparing my sis and his...i think his better bah...think cos he more experience...my sis first time cook this lei...haha...bt my sis's one also nt bad...lol...jus abit too salty...haha...now thinking of home-cooked food...i tot of darling's potato salad...yum yum...if i did nt remember wrongly...i think he also know how to cook omelette...maybe one day will get to try it...hmmm...haha...

abt tml...heard that we going to have a sumptuous lunch tml...haha...serene say got my favourite "prawn ball" but...but...but.....i cant eat!!!for goodness sake...my fav lei...sian...bt dun wan another relapse of the skin problem again...haiz...i feel that im really very very very lazy....i agree with darling that i shld go and see doctor soon again if this problem still dun goes off totally...bt im plain lazy...i admit...haiz...today been a bad girl again...haven even complete one bottle of my water....bt i gt drank one cup of water of the lemon tea lar...still im sure it's nt enuff...bt i really dun feel like drinking...gosh...i wan to take good care of myself...yet...i dislike those good habits...!! arh!!...i go slp le...hmm...call darling first...haha...nitey me..~

The ought to be "pak tor day"

2007-01-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

As the title suggest...today actually is pak tor day...bt darling got to go for the wedding photo shoot so my day was spent at home...playing "heroes of might and magic"...haha...bt good good is the outdoor shoot in the afternoon went well for him...haha...happy for him....

as for me...morning went out for tuition...bought KFC's zinger promotion meal as breakfast...eat as i travel...end up only manage to have 2 bites & the coke when i reached the tuition home...the family today like got some problems...duno wat is it but it's rather distracting...cant really concentrate...aiyoh...then the brother still quite ok...then when i was tutoring the brother...the sister was crying inside the room...duno wat happened sia...then today thou she also like last time laugh and laugh...bt her attention given was very low...keep writing the wrong word...miss out words and things lidat...then halfway thru the tuition..the mother and father were quarreling (thou nt very loud) heard them say wat $1000 dollars....muz be because of money...at least partially...then nt too long later the grandparents of the kids came....was another big distraction too...overall today tuition nt too good...maybe my dream last night was a warning signal...lol...i dreamt that i woke up at 1:30pm when my tuition was 10am at AMK...lol...too paranoid after last last week when i had fever and i totally forgot about the tuition until 10:15Am...lol...

then after the tuition...i continue my KFC breakfast...haha...that meal eat from 9:15am to 1:30pm sia...then i bought 4 sticks of ice-cream at AMK control...at first i buy is because i saw that coconut flavoured ice-cream...then upon closer look...saw champadek as well...then i happily tell the uncle i wan that 2...then as i waited for him to get that 2....i saw durian...lol...then i changed my mind to 3 sticks...then he cant find my champedek!!hurmp...then i say 2 jiu hao...then i gave him 2 bucks...then he gave me back $1....then i was thinking "so cheap ar" then i told the uncle to gimme another 2 sticks...cos i lazy to take out wallet again to keep the coin...lol...end up bought 4 flavours: coconut, durian, yam and corn (in order of preference!haha) then was thinking of buying mixed-veggie rice as lunch de...bt when i reached my mrt...while walking to the food court....saw this "illegal" stall selling "jumbu" so i decided to buy!lol...then went to ask how much...then he say one basket(which consist of 5) $2...3 baskets $5...then was thinking buy for myself only nt very nice...so bought $5...whole family can eat...haha...then end up i skipped lunch...nt that hungry anyway...haha....

then home...heroes...boil hot water...heroes...halfway go bath cos suddenly remember that i jus came home drenched...then heroes again...so u guys can see how bored my life will be without heroes....lol...hmmm....duno how rakion is now...so long never go in liao...wonder the style still the same anot....i miss rakion!! =( got to wait til feb after we change the internet plan and wait for them to give us another wireless link...sad sad...

then ard 5+ my cousin came....wanna play heroes also!! then now there keep saying "weijuan jie jie...u play 5 more mins then my turn k? u play very long already..." diao....he jus arrived how come he know i play very long liao lei???hurmp! lol....bt he very cute lar...so i let him and my bro play the com ard 6+...haha...then i check mails...eat dinner...then surf IVLE....OMG...life's so bored....then print notes...then check mails again....aiya...very bo liao jiu dui le....then chat chat abit on msn....then now going to slp le..just ate those "jumbu" i bought....realised it's nt that nice...it's very red...so i tot it was the kind which my parents bought last time...those were very sweet....then today's de....duno y the taste weird weird de...i think the life span of "fit for consumption" is expiring soon...lol...me and my poor taste for fruits....always duno how to choose de...haha...

ok shall end here....tml going out with darling in the afternoon instead of helping him fix the furnitures...then evening go blading with jade they all...haha...long time no blade le....duno still can blade smoothly anot....*pray pray*

After another long period of silence...

2007-01-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

Haha...been another long long time since i last blog...i realised blogging is nt really as easy as i think sia...it really take some effort...days have past so quickly that the next moment u wanna blog...a long long time had already slip past u...

Since the last time i blog...there is much improvement with regards to my palm and feet infection...however they still haven return to their original state yet...there's still some itchness and some peeling of the skin...really hope all this will be over soon...it's irritating...eeeks...sometimes to the extent that i cant slp lor...sian half...

ok enuff about the hand...hmmm...bout sch...so far school work still ok...nt much things yet since school had jus started...then sde club wise...did one car washing event...participated in some sort of survey thingy...all to raise funds for those ad hoc projects going on/ going to happen...the next upcoming event would be xue mei's v-day...haha...they have this very cute poster drawn by YK...then there is this very cute website done by CK's fren...if u people are free...do drop by...and pass the webby ard to help them get more sales...help us raise funds too...gam sia...haha...oh yar....the webby is : http://www.sdevalentine07.co.nr/ ...they have put in alot of effort in it so pls support... =D

next up on my work...have been going back to BD twice weekly...mainly to help out in my manager's project...it's really fun and happy working there...hope all my holidays/free days in NUS can all be given to BD...yay!!haha...the people there really treat me very good...i feel so lucky....come to think of it...since i started working when i was sec3....all my employers all treat me very good de lei...i'm one lucky chap ^^ haha...currently...*counting counting* im holding 3 jobs...one at BD, one ushering and one tutoring...recently just went for audition for some film shot assignment...if successful can get $150 for jus a few hours of shooting...good money man...i guess all these work will slowly reduce as sch term approaches mid term bah...

then on to tkd...recently went back to tkd again...actually the motive of going back is basically to keep the bonds between frenz...to xu jiu...and to exercise(thou slack alot nowadays...but other than tkd i don't exercise at all lei!!so throw face...haha...)then soon they going to have exams soon then i no more exercise time le...lol...their IVP coming soon...wish them all the best man...hope they can get some medals for NP this year...

last but nt least is my relationship with darling...i must say everything is still smooth sailing so far bah...no major arguements at least(duno it's a good thing anot since everyone says that there are sure to be quarrels between couples)...hmmm...are we both abnormal??aiyoh...haha...but sometimes really get very frustrated...yet duno how to show the anger also...arh...so useless...bt once the thing is over...i also forget liao...so sometimes short term memory is a good thing also...haha...another 19 days is our 1 year anniversary le...very glad that we r still together...duno how many more "1" years can i continue counting...hope it last many many many "1" years...and soon to "10"...haha...since young i've always wanted to start my own family...a cosy warm happy mini family of 4...last time i used to think of getting married at the age of 25 so that even after having 2 kids i'll still be less than 30...haha...bt the current situation really doesn't permit this...i've got into uni...after i graduate i'm already like 24-25...muz have some financial stability before getting married so 25 is out...maybe work for another 1 or 2 years then get married at ard 27? meaning me and darling got to pak tor for 7 years....bt darling's ideal age of marriage is 30....OMG....i would be so old by then...lol...ok lar...all this will have their own set of arrangements when the time comes...

Darling is so busy recently with his wedding photography shoot that's going to take place tml...dun even dare to ask him out...lol...so this week only went out once....exceptional case i guess....hope after this photography shot we can go out more often...hee...

Now should go to bed le...if nt tml tuition cannot wake up then die~! lols...hmmm...duno that mr phon got arrange any gatherings tml anot....never reply my sms! hurmp! then this sunday will be going blading with jade they all...they wil be there since 1030...til late evening...so ill call them to see if they are still continuing before i go down...heee...sunday morning got to help darling fix those newly arrived furnitures...then he dump me for chee siong...for dinner...lol....so sad hor???haha...bt nvm...they so long nvr meet...shall nt gek gao with him over this...haha..so hope i'll be able to make it for the blading...nitez all!!

2007-01-02T18:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm..it's been a long long time since i last blog..mainly it's because of laziness but bad internet connection and down laptop+PC do play a part too.

Today 2nd Jan 2007, new year muz have new resolution...so before i go on updating non-stop bout everything that had happened...first...my new year resolution: (1)To study harder for my upcoming semester (2)To love darling more by getting from him more hugs and kisses...hee =X (3) To see my hand and leg virus gone ASAP!!!!

As i have mentioned...my hands and legs got a certain virus so ppl pls stay away from me!! Dunno wat the hell are they doing on my palms and feet..now make me no mood to do anything!!hurmp!! im sad!!!worst thing is dunno whether is it contagious anot...then go out with darling dun dare hold hands cos scare pass it to him...the feeling sux...now dun even feel like going out with him due to this...haiz...yes darling...i know...ill go see doctor soon soon.. im now working at BD...this coming week is my last week le..in fact only left 3 days...then i have to go back to sch le..all modules im supposed to take is already in my account..i still wanna take one more gem and one more breathe(duno how to spell)to make myself have 5 subject this sem. Actually want to take 6 subjects de..but duno how to bring down year 2's module to this sem...dun think can...got to check it out for next sem..wanna graduate earlier lei...dun wanna waste money...oh yea...talking about money...jus got my econs book at second hand price of $25...hope its a bargain...hee...

then everyday work lor...then my shoe spoilt!haha...now im having this new pair of shoe from everbest!!so happy...duno why...lol..i think the show is nice...then maybe cos it's bought with darling one that's y special...it's the most expensive show i've ever wear man...ever...everbest!hee..after discount it's ard $63...claimed $60 frm mummy...and hor...im super poor now...bank left less than $63!!!first time use nets then transaction declined!! argh!! super xia suay..haha...think darling wanna find a hole to hide too sia...lol...sorry...then this month also got alot of festive seasons...so good...plus darling taking leave...it's great! this year christmas was out with darling...it's my best christmas ever!! to be able to spend so much time with him...we even had royce chocolate together...haha...best of the BEST! thanks darling for his "special package" for me on christmas...and that mystery gift which i cannot really mention here..haha...this year i received alot of christmas gift sia...i also gave alot of christmas gift due to the happiness i get from receiving those presents...i bought a christmas gift for every family member plus my darling...hee...spent quite alot but i know darling spent the most...thank u!!muack! then recently i also ate alot of special food...if not special then at least they are nt cheap or i do not eat them often! on 22nd, went KFC with colleagues..ate the new ultimate meal which consist of burger, pop corn, chicken and drink...best man..super worth it! haha..then after that is the "zi cha" @ redhill (i think) with darling on christmas eve...we ate chilli crab, "gong bao ji ding", "kai lan" and hmm...rice? did i miss out anything? really can't remember...haha...it's the freshest chilli crab i've ever eaten outside (of cos the best is still the fresh ones which my ah gong caught from the sea @ m'sia and eaten during new year..haha!)...but it's kindof ex compared to the one at sembawang shopping centre..they sell $3.50 per 100g which is $35 per kg and minimum order is 1 kg as usual...the one at sembawang shopping is $2.50 per 100g so it's $10 cheaper per kg...but duno nice anot...next time muz go try...hee...darling..*hint hint* haha...but that got to wait til my hands and legs virus gone first! hurmp!no seafood til it recovers...if u r friend....dun tempt me with seafood! grr...!! then after that went to the "japanese dining" restaurant @ chimjes with colleagues again...this time manager treat...ate beef set b...haha...got beef on top of rice...got soup...got a side dish + pickle...very nice...the beef very fragrant...then i gabra poured the soup on myself...and abit on auntie cynthia also...so sorry to her and paisei for myself...made a fool of myself in the restaurant...then the staff and waitress helped me cleaned up while i go toilet to clean myself...sad thing...no hand dryer...then after that meal saw channel 8's filming for some show...saw ben hugging joanne peh beside the white "railing" then one guy(duno his name)wanna run over then fiona xie stopped him...that's the scene yea...duno which show it's gonna be in..haha..oh yar...went out with gor on the 23rd for christmas shopping...be4 that had dinner at grapevine with the jmg + gor...the food is really great....hope there's a chance to eat there with darling someday...then went junction 8 in gor's car after giving a lift to chin khiang and jun han...gor bought his gift for his darling and me bought my gift for my darling...haha..then i bought a gift for my mama too cos the gift i bought previously like too giam siap...haha...ok following the chimjes treat is the new year eve and new year day dinner with my family members..new year eve we went marina square to shop for new year clothings...and ate at yoshinoya...wanted to bring mama to the royce chocolate de...to try out that "lu kou ji hua" feeling..haha...but end up shop til too late then never go...if got go maybe can meet darling sia..haha...at night talk on the phone with darling and realised that he brought his friends to royce to buy chocolate too...such a coincidence..hee...the day be4 new year eve also went city hall with darling...had our dinner at asian kitchen where angie and jocelyn was working..hee...got discount...lol...but we nt so giam siap...lol...even if they nt there we also intend to eat there le...lol...muz clarify sia..haha...then went to shop for gor's present...wanted to buy a addidas training bag for him...$60+...but end up no money to treat him to something nice...so called him...luckily i called sia...he say he no need bag...wan that jacket...i also know...but some others are already getting that for him mah...stupid...then end up he say dun wan gift...jus treat...so i booked kuishinbo...it was $49.90 for new year eve lei!!!omg...so ex...but i booked anyway...then end up i feel that i dun feel like going to such ex place...so tried calling and calling to try to cancel...but they never pick up my call...actually if i jus treat gor to that is ok de...but i dun wan spend so much on myself...hai...complicated duno how to explain..so decided to jus go out and eaat wherever we go tml...but end up my mama say family day on new year eve...and her order is like decree so muz follow...so in the end cancelled my meeting with gor and mei jun...so sorry...then new year day also go out with family...went to sembawang shopping to eat that thai restaurant food...and yar...jus ate there with darling nt too long ago...haha...then the food we ordered also very similar to wat darling and me ordered the last time..got the claypot tofu and veggie and the pineapple rice too...in addition got 2 more plates of "gong bao ji ding" and 1 more plate of veggie plus "qing zheng" cod fish + sweet and sour pork less the friend sotong...cos i cant eat now!! =( then now teaching my brother chinese...super pek cek...and yar...i wanna mention something...since that time went out with gor.. and he stepped on my foot...then from then my foot like got magnet lidat...always attract other ppl's leg on my foot!!argh!! that time he stepped on my leg at least 2 times...then the next day with darling....he also stepped on my foot...then new year eve went out with family...my bro stepped 3-4 times, new year day, my bro stepped another 3-4times then my 2nd sis stepped another 2 times...my dad stepped another 2 times....then today sis stepped once...brother stepped once again!!! haiz...altogether SOOOOO many times sia!!! argh!!!stupid!!

not forgeting the zoo trip with darling on the 17th...yea it's foc so dun have any ticket for me to keep...and cos everything too last minute..din have enuff time to inform sydney about it to make it a double date..=/ it was the second time to zoo with darling...i really love the feeling of going to zoo with darling...even if go everyday i also nt sian one...but duno y to guys...they jus dun like to go to the same place so many times..aiyo...anyway im very forgetful so basically the whole trip was very fun and exciting new experience for me but darling already know all the places even thou he only went once...so it's kind of boring to him? duno...but i know he dun really like going to the same place too many times...lol...but becos of me...he no choice! lol...thanks again darling..

ok lar... i think quite a long post le....now for some pics i took with my family on new year day:i better post it on another post in case anything happen and all my post will be gone....haha...

Bored

2006-12-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

3-4 blog entry in a day...hmmm only slightly more than half the day....this goes to show how bored am i....

im freaking bored and my sore throat is freaking painful...duno wat to do now except blogging...omg..dun feel like playing rakion also...cos home PC internet link down...lazy to go try try try til can so rather be here doing nothing...OMG....hmmm...got the craving for cheesecake~! wanna go sun plaza buy lei...but...sore throat...duno can eat anot..haiz...how sia...freaking bored duno wat to do...hmmm..
watch the vcds?....but gonna watch them again with dear soon lei..
play isketch?....if later cant guess the word will feel even worse sia..

im missing him...today actually shld be a paktor day one...but he meeting his fren...so we meeting tml...

arh!!!the more i think the more i feel like eating cheesecake!!omg...wat shld i do?all xin yan's fault...put that cheesecake(birthday cake of hers i guess..) on her blog...i see le...argh!!!!lol....wonder where her frenz brought that cake...look really nice..hee..i am such a glutton...aiyo...hmmm...wat to do wat to do...im like flooding my own blog sia...i think if my sore throat not so bad..today would not be such a bored day also...sianz....

Nothing better to do

2006-12-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

Today at home nothing better to do so went around reading blogs...lol...came across xinyan's blog and think that this is so interesting...haha...

The top 10 unintentionally worst company URLs

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1. A site called "Who Represents" where you can find the name of the agent that represents a celebrity. Their domain name is

www.whorepresents.com

2. Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange advice and views at

www.expertsexchange.com

3. Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island at

www.penisland.net

4. Need a therapist? Try Therapist Finder at

www.therapistfinder.com

5. Then of course, there ¡s the Italian Power Generator company

www.powergenitalia.com

6. And now, we have the Mole Station Native Nursery, based in New South Wales:

www.molestationnursery.com

7. If you're looking for computer software, there is always

www.ipanywhere.com

8. Welcome to the First Cumming Methodist Church. Their website is

www.cummingfirst.com

9. Then, of course, there is these brainless art designers, and their whacky website:

www.speedofart.com <-- SPEEDO FART!!! HAHAHAHA!

10. Want to holiday in Lake Tahoe? Try their brochure website at

www.gotahoe.com

**copyright:the above is taken from xin yan's blog..hee...

haha...darling also plan to do some online biz...so hope this serve as a reminder to him to carefully choose his URL...lol...

Hmmm...

2006-12-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

Read up on some help on blogger....lets try if i can upload those pics...

firstly on my personality... (YAY!!successful!!gosh...im so noob in this...)

i like this personality type...SJ...haha...simon & juan =P

4 true love wor...so many...aiyo...and my darling's birthdate not on that list!!hurmp!

i dun think im a very dresser...hee...

my career....hmmm....among all those...i most want to be counselor =X shocking yea?haha...
i dun think im that pure...lol...sometimes being call pure means ignorant!!hurmp....dun like!lol...

Next is about my mental types...

hmm...almost half half...lol..when i was young i was a left hander but my mum got old fashion thinking...say left hander no good so beat me til i became right hander...lol...

hmmm...maybe it's true...haha...cos i have been quite boyish...in terms of behaviour lar...like very chor lor...and sporty...haha...

The above 2 contradicts lor...one say im very logical while the other say otherwise...hurmp!

luckily despite my chor lor....still think like female...haha....

Honestly i dunno what this part about me means...i understand all the score's description except mine...the one from 111-130...if someone can "decode" it, pls enlighten...lol...

next on horoscope/zodiac/birthdate/tarot/animal...
i love dog but that doesnt mean i should be a dog rite? somemore female dog's name not nice to hear...aiyo...
haha...thou nt my fav doggy but still very cute...and yes...my sense of smell is amazing...but i dun wan!!!cos the moment someone farted...im the FIRST to smell it....always....!!!argh!!

which is darling's horoscope...lol...such a coincidence...hee...so happy =X

wonder when is an aries birthday...lol...

hmmm...i admire this horoscope de...cos my mum is from this horoscope and all along i think my mum is very li hai...can cope with work, home, family...and she's very true to herself and others also...hee...

next the skill in me....

dun really agree with this...haha...cos i often knock into people and things while walking...thou i dun fall down like the small small girl in my current clique...lol...

next i like this...haha..."are u scary" test...when this result came out...i was like...omg...lol...it really shock me...haha...the result is soooo funny...haha....
wooohooo...do people admire me for this? wonder wonder....

lastly...on my love & relationship aspect....
i super agree to the last part...i'm quite obessessed with meeting him...arh!!*shy*of cos! if not a man meh...later darling scare scare...lol...

i find that the above 2 contradicts again sia...if u hardly ever kiss..how can ur technique be perfect???....hmm...and the kissing technique only darling can judge...lol..*hide under the sand*so embarassing...
yea i agree with this...wouldn't like kisses for the sake of kissing...mus have the mood and like what the chinese people say "tian shi di li ren he"..haha...
i dun wan to fall hard hard... T.T hope that day never comes....
wah...is this good or bad???
i post this under love & relationship because wanna prove it to dear who always say me fat that IM NOT FAT!!lol...u r fatter =P haha... darling...not happy go blame government k.. *read last line in the picture above...haha..

hmmm...i think finance is a very big aspect on y im nt ready...and studies too =(

wow....im starting to have wings...all the personality test all good good...lol...or all personality test is lidat de? got more good pts than bad pts to make u happy so that u will continue doing those test...lol..
haha...who break up not shock one? unless they are they one proposing it...

hee...this is good...well-balanced again..=P

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Aww...tired...

2006-12-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!STUPID BLOGGER EAT MY BLOG!!!!!LAST NIGHT WHEN I SAVE THE BLOG ENTRY IS ALREADY ALOT DE!!!THEN TODAY OPEN LIAO MORE THAN HALF THE ENTRY GONE!!!!GRRR.....!!!NEXT TIME CANNOT SAVE AS DRAFT DE!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NOW IM GOING TO BASE ON MY MEMORY AND REWRITE THE BLOG ENTRY I WROTE YESTERDAY!!!THOSE IN BLUE IS REWRITTEN TODAY....ARGH!!!!!!!! ( written on 9th)

(written on 8th)
Today early in the morning woke up at 6!!last night 12plus then slp lei...cos went vivo with the tkd gang...then dear sent me home...he also reached home late late...around 12? today wake up early is to go send gor to tekong...haha...hair off day...been 6 days since me and dear last meet due to my exams =( but nvm...met up le...hee... (gosh the whole chunk on the things that happened be4 we went vivo ALL LOST!!!!ARGH!!!!blogger sucks!!!)

Yesterday went to his house in the morning at 950...someone ask me reach at around 9 plus 10 but when i reach his house...guess wat???someone still sleeping soundly in lala land lor!!!grrr...!!then his mum helped me opened the door...then i went in...some people see people at their house le they still can continue sleeping one!!so being a democratic(lol!) person...i let him continue his slp....then i switch on his com to check my email...but til the login page...SHIT...no password!!!argh! so being autocratic(lol!!!!) as well (since im a gemini..haha...) i kick someone out of the bed!! but that idiot dun wan help me login!!!arh!!!he slow slow dily daly wake up...keep tempting me with the com...then end up go brush teeth and wash face!!!!OMG!!!then me left in the room like an idiot...NOTHING TO DO...then wait for him to come and login....but someone very good...come into the room...first thing....sweep my face with water!!argh!!!then slowly dry face....slowly walk to the com...and SLOWLY LOGIN!!!!stupid!! **p.s: i wasnt so violent when i wrote this part of the post yesterday, think this blogger is driving me crazy!!!** then login le dear showed me a few makan places from hardware zone...hee...planning planning...then we played isketch...watch shrek(recorded)...then some awkward situation took place when i asked for dear to show me something he dun wish to...(DONT THINK DIRTY!!!)...hmm...really upset and disappointed due to some things but i respect his wishes...then he went bath while i play rakion and we went out for lunch at ard 2pm...

we went orchard California pizza...had a neapolitan pizza by the name of "milan"...very nice...thin crust...lots of ingredients....BEST!...great taste muz try!!!all in all...6 pieces...jus rite for 2 hungry person...and its aroung $25 after adding all those gst, svc charge, etc..then we went vivo...go earlier in case late...haha...

we reached at around 5...i brought dear to candy empire to see that coconut chocolate which is much more cheaper than the one at XXX chocolate shop...i still cant remember its name...hee...then after that want to go find that expensive chocolate shop's name so that i can put it in my blog de...but halfway on way up...darling wan go "best" see see...at first quite reluctant to go in...cos wanna go find that chocolate shop...but end up i was the one attracted strongly by the console and keep playing and dun wan to leave...lol...

from here onwards is blogged on 9th oct 2006 de...
----- wah..this blog entry from last night blog til now morning le...haha...last night while blogging halfway darling called...plus...photobucket abit slow...so closed it to continue today -----

ok...now is 8:16 in the morning...last night 2pm sleep...basically i have less than 6 hr of slp (cos i woke up jus now be4 8) and now im having BIG SORE THROAT! very bad...later then say....now back to last night's story first....

ok...we were in "best" and i was like playing the console and dear wanting to go out...but i dun care and continue playing...then he very evil...say got something to show me...then walk walk walk...then near entrance then say "let's go".....grrrr....!!!!tricked me to get out from that shop!!!!!!always lidat bluff me de T.T ok nvm...haha...then we attempt to go and find the expensive chocolate shop name...then we pass by the coffee bean where we saw alot of ppl queuing...was wondering how come coffee bean suddenly so popular..then ytd dear found out that it's because on that day from 5-7pm u can order anything drinks from them and pay ANY amt u like...gosh....if i knew i also go queue...wasnt that long afterall and we were waiting for them mah...might as well...but no luck...haha...didnt went to find out...lol..so in the end we went to the pet shop cos i really cant find that chocolate shop...*gosh...here got one whole part also lost!!!!now i think i know what's the problem liao...cannot put the sign with that squeezy eyes...if not that whole part til the next squeezy eyes will DISAPPEAR!!!!now i have to retype this whole part again!!!i abit forget what i type le lor...re type and retype!!* ok then met up with the gang...now lets see if i still remember...plus me and dear 15 people...hmm...got gor, joseph, bee, qihui, angie, joc, kahwei, sebas, jinkai, ziwei, jason, qing ming and sinyan...then i wan to bish gor lor...ask us go watch never tell angie they all...end up wasted abit of time to go re-queue and buy tickets...luckily got to sit together..haha..then went eat asian kitchen and watch movie "open season"...*gosh...i typed alot jus now lei...i dun wanna retype le...so sian...actually got review and alot of other stuff de...im so sadded...this post is super messy*at asian kitchen best is their prawn toast and because angie joc was ard...one person only pay 10bucks...good and affordable...then the movie also nice...aiyah...everything nice jiu dui le...sianz...

yesterday(8th oct) is gor's enlistment day...so in order to try his omelette which he promised long long ago....i reached his house at 0745 to try his cooking be4 he go tekong..haha...was very very nice....hee....2nd person to cook specially for me...feel so xin fu esp when the first person is...heee...then 0815 le that bee bee still haven reach there....omg....then started calling sin yan to get her home number...then call call call no one pick up then ask weijie for her home address...then end up went there..SHE STILL SLEEPING!!!!ARGH!!!*ah bish bee siang* then me and gor waited outside her house while she get change....luckily she din take too long ar...haha...ok lar...she abit guilty....better dun say too much...lol...then we set off to tekong....haha...long journey lei...reach pasir ris interchange...took bus...then boat...then reach...when i first step down...i felt as if im at pulau ubin...lol...jus that that place is cleaner and more beautiful...it's like a resort to me...lol...but to the guys...i know they see it differently...haha...then went to walk around the place...with a soldier as the tour guide...went to gor's bunk(very vlean like chalet), recreational room(air-conditioned..very comfortable), has a brief talk on what they'll be getting(their clothes, shoes and so on..), canteen(to wait for others to reach before all go auditorium together), auditorium(where they take the duno wat pledge) then after everything went to the cookhouse to eat...haha...the only thing we were all looking forward to...lol...then the lunch...OMG...yucks...lol...the veggie and soup nt for human consumption de lor...lol...the chicken drumstick not bad lar...the rice normal..banana normal...syrup normal...and bee commented that the best food on her plate is the chilli...lol....then time pass very quickly...took a few photos and we left tekong...and now gor in camp le...but today saturday...duno he got training anot...haha...looking forward to see his botak head after 2 weeks...he MAY go camp wor(he say one=X)...hee...and now...his iPod is with me!!yay...haha....for safekeeping...lol...later i spoil it ar... =/

then reached home at around 3? cant remember...haha...but the journey was long....wah...yesterday dear called me 3 times all in all lei...so sweet...i love talking to him...chatterbox me...haha...only he can match my chatterness...lol...and will response de wor...not only listen...hee...then reached home...rested a while...check email..saw a junior add me in friendster...check out her bloggy...saw a few personality test...and i went to do them...then once start...cannot stop!!omg...so in the end did 41 of them...til around 8+ then go for dinner...gonna post some(in fact most) of them here...hee...if it bores u...dun read...lol..

Firstly some about my personality...

...aiya...duno why i try so many times le but the photos just dun wan to show up!!nvm..wait my sis make for me...will post in next post....hee...now hmm...sleep bah...while listening to that iPod...hee...

FINALLY!!EXAMS OVER!!!

2006-12-06T12:52:00.000+08:00

wow..this is amazing...the feeling inside is just soooooooo good!!!now lets pray hard i dun need to retake any module next sem!!=D

since ytd after my last paper at 11....i feel great!!all the way til now!!haha...yesterday after my paper went for rag meeting...lao-da came to fetch us(rol, gary and me) back to sde for meeting..thou rol and gary went for FOC instead of rag..haha..so lao-da brief me n fei on the meeting we will be going thru later then 1203 began the meeting...then 1pm end le...then called gor...then went eat chicken rice...my lunch!!wah...was ard 2 at that time and my stomach was rumbling like nobody's business...then went gor's house..he taught me how to use my newly yet-to-own ipod!haha...actually it's gor's but since he going army liao so i shall help him bao guan first...hee XD then he taught me how to use some software and some programs for downloading movies!but duno need money to download now anot...anyway jus the songs he have inside is enuff to keep me away from boredom le bah...haha...but friday when he officially go in then the ipod will land in my hand >.<>.< "BOUNTY"...a chocolate i can't find in any shopping centre...one of my fav...haha...went to one chocolate shop...forgot its name cos i dun like there...haha...they sell my bounty(500g) at $18.90!! so shocking!! so i went to candy empire and got a packet of 400g bounty at only $7.80!!!SEE THE DIFF???omg...ok...enuff of chocolates...then walk past breadtalk...thou still haunted by that pubic hair incident...i bought a firefloss bread...i supposed bread are safer...lol...its for my breakfast this morning...cos i know i got to bring my bro to kk hospital for checkup so better buy a breakfast in case i skip breakfast again...then cos we meeting joseph, jian an and qi hui at 1030pm...we still got time..so they suggest go giant walk walk...then i bought something again!!=( i bought a 5-packet korean instant noodle...$4.20...another money spent on food! >.<>.< and my day ended...haha..

this morning...brought lil bro to kk hospital...at first tot will late cos i plan to leave house at 0830 but i 0830 then woke up...0845 then leave house...however...we reached at 0945 when the appt time was 1000..haha...i was early!lol...then after seeing the doctor...spent $20 for the fee of consultation! mama nvr give me any money!!!T.T luckily i have $20 left...this one muz claim back!lol...then jus now check email and saw this funny clip from jade...the freaking brothers...haha...damn funny...if anyone wanna watch jus sms/msn/email/tag to let me know...haha...they are simply amazing...lol...

now time is 1327...feel that i have alot of things waiting for me to be done but duno wat lei...i miss darling...i wanna go slp and dream of him le..>.<>.< ok i go slp liao...gonna skip lunch...not hungry...hope tonight still can slp..

Something is wrong...but i duno wat...

2006-12-04T09:09:00.000+08:00

think from yesterday or the day before onwards i keep having weird feelings in me...wats happening???i really have no idea...is it due to exam? is it because i very long nvr go tkd then nvr get to destress? is it because i'm afraid of the many things rag is awaiting me to do? wat the hell is happening...

last night had a bad dream...shall not elaborate here...but it's definitely something i hope will never happen...scary...

anyway this morning woke up at 7+...been wanting to study but jus cant really get down to it...it's an open book exam...really dunno how to study to make sure that im well prepared...previously the 2 CA for this module, which is also MCQ...i tot i prepared enuff...yet one i scored F and the other i scored D...it's definitely very disheartening...thou it's just a SS module...but it's really very hard to do well man...stupid MCQ qns that are sooooooo tricky...and the teachers dun even give us back our papers to reflect upon our mistakes!! i hate it and i even suspect whether they got mark wrongly for my first CA anot...study so hard and gt F for it...that feeling is lousy...bad....

i cant study!!cant!!!i think i gonna die soon!!!i suddenly feel helpless...it's jus weird cos i duno wat's causing all this...ytd i suddenly miss my maid who had gone back to indonesia...still cant really get use to this new maid...so un-auto one...but who cares...her main job here is to take care of my ah ma...if she can do that well then i guess she will be continuing with us for the next 2 yrs...ytd i not only miss my previous maid...while i was talking to darling on the phone...i even tot of my grandpa and the good old days at my old apartment...i suddenly miss alot of things...it's like there' this rock on me....i duno how to describe it...but i jus feel so tired...and like got something inside me that i cant voice out...like got some "xin shi men zai xin li" lidat...strange...

now i got to stop here and go back to my book and try to mug!shit!!

Stucked in lift!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

Shit lei!!!today morning first thing so shitty happen!

FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I GOT STUCKED IN THE LIFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wah recently duno why alot of things is happening around me sia...i wouldn't say they are the worst of my life but they are all definitely my first time!!!!!!!!lol...

Last night talked with darling on the phone on many issues...until around almost 2am..haha...feel so much better after that talk...We talked about the importance of "first time" of events and things happening in our life and today i realised recently alot of "first time" is happening sia...
1st time...
- taking my first exam in uni
- so suay that the breadtalk cheesecake i bought from BREADTALK got ONE pubic hair inside the box!
- stucked in lift!!!!!!!!!!!!!!grrr............!!!!!!!!!
ALL within THREE DAYS!!!

Hmmm...yesterday after the paper went out with dear to that "Basil Alcove"...haha finally remember the name...anyway the food i would rate it 3/5. It's not really as nice as those reviews say but the price is really not bad...then reach home bath...then can't remember wat i was doing when darling called...then we played isketch together....so fun!!haha...it seems more fun than playing rakion...lol...maybe it's also a first time bah...haha...when we were still at his house we also got play isketch awhile...it was super fun...haha...the 2 of us keep getting the champion of the game...lol...combined power!haha...ok back to night...as we were playing isketch together...my internet connection suddenly die on me!!no matter how hard i try...restart com...relogin...re-plugging the device...all cannot...then darling called...and we started talking instead of playing lor...today morning sis keep bothering me about the internet...so i took a look...then i went to troubleshoot the device...looks like re-installing is the only way out...so i tried...and now can le!!!yay!!haha...but duno when it will die again...i have a "yu gan" that it will die soon!lol...

Ok this morning hor...intend to start my day good...so last night decided that today morning muz eat a good breakfast...went out wanting to buy koko-krunch...then took my WALLET...and went out....FIRST TIME NEVER BRING HANDPHONE ALONG!!!if i have my handphone with me....maybe i can call the lift company myself???or maybe i can take a photo and show people what's the situation is like when one is stucked in the lift!and most importantly i wouldnt mind being stuck in the lift for 25mins if i could have darling's company over the phone!!lol...ok back to the lift....upon reaching level 1.....the lift suddenly shake and stopped!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!i was so close to level one le!!!!left HALF A STOREY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so frustrating.....then knowing nothing can be done....i keep pressing the bell and hope someone will come and "SAVE " me!!!stupid lor....my sis and bro and maid all know i jus went out....then never go and see wat happened!!!grrr...!!!after being stucked in the lift for aroung 10mins then got 2 kids come see see....then i ask them call the number outside to "save" me...then they "ok ok" then disappear le....some people i saw(from reflection of the noticeboard) coming out from the other lift...no matter how hard i press the bell...then also din bother to go and see what is happening!!!!!wah....SINGAPOREANS!!!omg!!!so kaypo yet not kaypo when they should!!!!grrr...........!!!then after another 5mins luckily got ONE uncle pass by!!!!HERO!!!i asked him to help me call...then he called using his hp...then he tell me those technician will arrive in TWENTY FIVE MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!u know that's like throwing me to hell?!?!?!i will die inside the life lor(abit exaggerated lar..)haha...luckily the ventilation still ON....then after that knowing nothing else can be done...i shall wait...then i wanted to ask the uncle to call my home to inform them so that they won't worry or what...then when i was trying to tell him my home number...he can't hear....so he try to open abit then i also try to open abit.....then before i divulge my phone number....."626........."i was thinking if the door can be force open then ask the uncle to try...and i try also.....and.....TADA!!!i'm out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!lol....then i thanked the uncle and went to buy my breakfast....what an exciting morning!!!!!lol....then when i reached home....i complained how come NO ONE go and see if it's me!!!!!!then my maid say she got thought of it but not sure....OMG...then sis in study room re-installing the wireless network device so also never care....my brother worst.....heard the bell, say "which idiot so irritating keep pressing the bell!!!"........GOSH...and NONE of them came to save me!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then after i reach home...bro and sis was getting ready to go out for breakfast with dad!!!ALAMAK....earlier i know dad is treating us to breakfast...i wouldn't have gone out to buy the koko-krunch and i wouldn't have got myself stucked in the lift!!!lol...what an eventful morning i must say....

Then went to my old house there the market to eat breakfast....im so full now....bloated....ate wan ton mee....drank soy bean milk...and ate abit of those fried stuff(like "you tiao", "hum jim bang", "banana fritters")...all eat abit lar...>.< darling see le sure mouth big big eye big big =X lol...ok so now i should go study le...shall blog again when another "eventful" thing happen!which i hope...wun have!!!

Oh yea...darling FINALLY blogged!lolz...lazy cow...

Small rest...

2006-11-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

Today Saturday...but still got exam...haha...but nvm cos today paper not that hard...anyway 2 paper is down le...another 4 more to go...the next paper is tuesday so now taking a small rest...going out with darling later...now at his place using his com typing this post...hee...he lazy cow sleeping...so ill use this com as if my own!haha..

later going to eat "Basil xxx" cham...forgot the name..haha...but nvm...reservations made...hee...so happy...lol...the booking process....shall not mention le..lol...

tml will start to pia stats le...din really study that....still need to prepare 1 A4 help sheet...also haven do yet >.< but got listen in class lar...shldnt be tooo bad...haha...

today's test MAY do calculation...but i din bring calculator...luckily fei got extra to lend me....but in the end also nvr use...anyway the calculator inside my bag now....din manage to return it to her cos i left early...today the exam is a 2hr paper....but i 35mins finish le...duno will get how much...haha...

yesterday's english paper was quite "vary between bad and ok" haha...ok darling wake up le...faster end this...bb!

Exam Start Tml!!!!!!

2006-11-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

Awww..this is sooooo bad....i want to go slp but instead of that..im here blogging....
Im waiting for the stupid disk cleanup to complete its operation....it's so late le...just now was waiting for the webcast to load....duno is something wrong with the webcast or something wrong with my connection...as and when the computer likes it, it will announce no internet connection! but when i see the connection symbol...it's still connected! gosh.....my webcast.....either load very very slow or when it FINALLY load finish...the stupid connection thing happen!!grrr...!!!!i gave up!!din managed to watch the webcast...then wan go slp le...then the diskcleanup pop up to say memory low so ask me to cleanup...now i select for it to clean up and it's soooooo slow....gosh....

Tml is morning paper lei...muz wake up at 0645 latest!! but now 0025 le and i cant slp yet! hope tml darling's wake up call will be able to wake me up!HOPE!im very tired...and i duno wat will happen if i go and end that disk cleanup program so no choice but to wait....grrr...!!

When will he come and fix this stupid problem????lol...=X today dear so sweet...haha...maybe to some people, they may think that its irritating but to me...no way...hee...

today also changed my blogskin...spent 4hrs in the morning drawing that background and searching for photos...then another 5hrs from my youngest sis to edit those html things...haha...i dun wanna waste time already...lol...then finally...this is out! love it so much...after so much effort...it's worth it! esp love the spotlight effect...so cool!really thanks her alot...haha...anyway this morning treat her and youngest bro to mac breakfast...also spent quite alot wor....so wat i wanna say is wat is spent and what i get for my blog is worth it!lol...thou in the first place the treat is not for any purpose de lar...jus wanna find companion for breakfast then she no money so i pay lor...then this morning before stepping out...thiniking if bro go also not bad...the more the merrier mah...but i forgot the more the more expensive T.T...haha...nvm...oh yar...my 2nd sis nvr go cos she lazy to wake up earlier as she have class later...hurmp!if she go i wouldnt have need to spend any money lor...cos she'll pay herself de....grrrr...!

Also hor...today a war broke out at my home...between my youngest sister and brother...lol...oops...=X actually quite funny lar...haha....cos they 2 were fighting over the TV programme...then shout and scream and hit each other....then MUM came out..scolded the sis...say what she so old already fight with younger bro(small kid)...then sis bu fu qi....snatch the remote and switch the channel when my bro is watching...then the fight continues...then mum came out slap sis...gosh...i was shocked! then sis went room cry...then brother win!lol...then she went room cry...mother see le buay song...went to take cane to cane her....long time nvr tio caning le...so i see her get cane i also abit scare scare >.< however i think she cry till numb le...she lie on her bed...mum cane but she no response one...then lidat lor...cane finish le continue crying...cry cry and cry....then brother complain eyes pain..then show me...then i saw a small swell...then he keep crying also....wah lao...ji quan bu ning...still i find it quite funny lar...am i sadist or wat...lol...cos i find them fighting over TV quite silly lei...duno lar...maybe becos i very long never have the urge to watch any specific TV show le...haha...more sticky to my com...lol...

Tml english paper...scary...thou its a pass fail module...but there is high tendency to fail...but like wat i tell myself..WON'T FAIL DE!...hee...should be lar hor....hmmm....the disk cleanup finish cleaning le...so think i go slp le...good night all...

Late lecture

2006-11-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

Today late lecture ar....7pm - 9pm...now still at home...had been video conferencing with dear since 12+ til now...3+ going to 4pm le...

Haha...now 4 pm le...jus ended the video call..awww..miss him.. >.< mah ="/">.<

missing him...so sian...y am i experiencing missing someone...how good if humans can control their all these...lolz...then ill set it to "DON'T MISS!" lol...*poof* go rest le...hee...

long long ago...haha...

2006-11-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

alrite alrite...blog blog blog...haha...not easy to maintain a blog man!haha...look like the last time i blog here was long long ago...lol...paisei har...had been busy busy...and abit lazy lazy...

exams is around the corner...jus realised that there's only 12 days left for count down...i'm supposed to start to revise for my exams long long ago...haha...yet nothing have started yet >.<
actually blogging is really very fun when u are in the correct mood..having the correct amount of time..hee..tonight is the night...of blogging...typing...haha...i just wrote tons of testimonials in friendster...can consider to be keeping contacts with some old frenz bah...and to some really close current frenz...and boyfriend >.< hee....i think im mad lor..everytime i write testimonial sure come in dozens de..it's the mood lar...haha...hmmm...lemme recall if there's any da jian shi that happened recently since i last blog...wooooh...long long ago...

in july...
wah...really cant remember le...too long ago man...haha..

in august...
i think that's when the school starts? haha really no idea le...national day? lol...oh yar...bro went hospital in august...bad bad...think it's because of some food poisoning?duno him lar...vomit and shit like nobody's business...worried everyone around him sia..oh yar...and this mth marks the half year anniversary..hee =)

in sept...
also no good de month...ah ma...old granny went hospital...due to a fall...bad fall...forehead got a cut...deep one...somewhat like harry potter's scar >.< my maid was like calling out to me...shouting from outside my room..i was awaken in shock! then called my dad...called 995..as there was no other adults at home...i had the experience of 1st time sitting in ambulance...no good man...on the way to the hospital...my ah ye(grandpa) came to my mind...i was so afraid that ah ma will be the same as ah ye lor..then luckily she now at home le...recover le...but duno y recently jus yesterday and today...she is experiencing some backache body ache and knee ache...duno wat happened also...mum say may be kidney...aunt say may be the spine...really no idea...but only know..it's no good!oh yar..and our dear fei fei got attached in sept!!hee...and still doing well and fine with her dear now...so sweetly in love lor...xie mu!!haha...

in oct...
i think bro went hospital again sia...think my family very suay during that few months...every mth also muz go hospital visit someone...this time round...bro fainted in school...quite serious i guess...then cannot talk also...then mum brought him home and gave him some sunrider stuff...then can talk abit and hands and legs can move abit...then sent to kk hospital...now recover le...the doctor that time say that he faint might be due to lack of oxygen which trigger duno wat sheng jing xian that's y he fainted...he also say that he may not be able to engage in too vigorous activities in future if it's really the sheng jing xian's problem but the brain scan shows that he is normal lei...that time when he jus came back from hospital..a nurse ask my mum if she believe in those god ghost thing and then my mum brought him to some tong ling ren and ask...then she say my bro offended some bing ma (soldiers and horses) so me and mum went to burn some incense and pray for him...now everything normal le...doctor also duno y he fainted...maybe it's due to those thing lor...ni ke xin qi you...but no scientific proof lar...haha...
oh yar...and my 2nd sis's bday is in oct...15th...yar...i remember that i argue alot with her on that month...duno y also...think i argued alot during that few months..with mum...with sis...duno lar...maybe too many things suddenly happen altogether then cannot take it...then for her bday dear and me bought a necklace for her...think til now i still haven pay him back the money >.<>.<
yea...this month also got sde bash..organised by fei fei and jian ming...was a success i think...hee...after lots of talking and talking...finally managed to get some tkd supporters down..haha..thanks sia...yar...but that time think dear wasnt very happy that i went for bash...cos he dun like me to club and also at night about my safety...luckily gor got go...then got send me home...then nt that bad...but anyway i dun club de mah...jus wanted to put in some effort to help frenz with all that i can...cos previously due to my stupid modules...i have alot of test going on...wasnt able to help much...so jus trying to help on the actual day lor...but i know he got his reasons to worry about also lar...scare i always wan help this wan help that in the end cant help myself and flunk my studies...thanks for ur concern dear...i'll try my best to balance both sides de k...promised =)

in nov...
not too long ago nia...shld be able to recall more things lar...haha...hmm...omg...suddenly mind blank!!omg...ok..focus focus....gosh...think not too long ago i went out with liying...my poly best fren...had a great day with her...those gossippings and chatting never stops...haha...shared with her some of my tots and gained some valuable advice from her...really thanks her for that...even thou i dun have a large group of frenz to hang out with...i still feel fortunate to have jus a few great frenz hanging around me...first is meijun...primary school fren..then is liying...poly fren...and of cos my mini tkd gang with gor, joseph, beesiang, jingonn, cuiling and jade..then now is uni got fei, carol and xue mei....actually im quite lucky le...sometimes i envy people around me who can cope with many many frenz...cos im not able to do so...im only able to be myself around few frenz...when the group gets larger...i cant be myself...duno y...im actually a very chatty person..but when the crowd gets too huge...i duno what to say also...scare say wrong things...so everytime in DE room..also dun talk much...even in tkd...during trainings...also dun talk much...but more than at DE club room lar...haha...some people might even think i act dao lor! lol...i remember that's wat one of my poly fren told me...haha...but im not dao!!imuz clarify...im actually very very talkative...it's jus that im not able to handle too many people at the same time...im so lousy i know...but there's always some weakness in everyone de mah >.<
oh yar...carol is attached now as well...haha...so happy...my clique of 4 is all attached...lol...let's hope we'll all be xin fu mei man for long long time...hee...as long as possible ^^
yar another thing...i promised jiawei to be his vice for rag...im so worried that i'll screw up things...but i'll try my best bah...heard that FOC has started their meeting le...and we haven start anything yet...think muz start right after exams...but i wanna work as well...cos need money...alamak...so many things to do...>.<
and hor..duno y lei...my memory is failing me lor...last thurs...im supposed to have a meeting with carol, ting ting and kozaw on PF1101 @4...but i straight away after class at 2 i went home!until carol called me at 3 then i realised i forgotten about the meeting!!!omg...plus..not only that...friday night i was supposed to have another english discussion with my group matesat 11:30pm online...and wat was i doing???i forgotten all about it again!!!the feeling of missing meetings which are set earlier on really sux...i duno wat's happening to me but this is really bad...is it exam coming then i stress?or wat which i really have no idea at all...recently due to test and school work...i rarely go down for tkd le...i jus skipped another one last thurs because of the test on fri...i got F for that module's CA2 so i cant afford to F it again...so decided not to go down and study at home...hope this time round will score better...until now i still cannot believe how i did so badly in my CA2...it's MCQ plus open book...thou each qn have around 2mins but that shouldn't make it F also...really cant understand...then i email the teacher and ask her to check for me...thanks har...she really is only CHECK lor...only check from the list she post and confirmed with me that i scored F!!! wat the...doesnt she knows that im asking her to check my test paper???i duno y this module muz be so secretive about their marking schemes...they never give us back our test paper to check de lor...dun even know if they got mark wrongly anot...really saddening...

wah...1am le...everyone slping le...>.<>.< (ok lar...like wat he always say "it's everyone's fault except my fault") haha...he thanked me for my understanding that our meeting is so short today...but i also wanna thank him for making the effort to meet me even thou he is so sick lei...i think cos he knows that i dun like to have dates plan le then never carry out...heez...despite being sick..he still sent me home...so sweet of him..and in return...i gave him more vitamin H and K to boost up his immune system...hope it works for him...haha...and also din expect him to call me tonight cos too sick...yet a surprise phone call was very welcomed by me...heez...he muz be sleeping and snoring like a pig now...oops....or cow..watever...haha...me missing him...>.<

ok lar...shall stop here...think i've written tons of stuff...will try my best to update soon lar hor..haha...yay...go slp le...tml got someone's bday treat at kusinbo(duno how to spell) but still feel honoured to be one of those 5 he invite lar...haha...first time eating there so very qi dai...if the food is good..maybe bring gor go there eat instead of the raffles there...see how lar..haha...

good night all =)

haha...just did something stupid...i copy and paste the above whole blog in microsoft words and see how long is the entire blog..and omg...1670words excluding this para...shocking man...

Updates updates...

2006-07-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

Ok...so long nvr blog...bee nag liao...muz blog...hahaz..paisei lar...quite busy...but fulfilling dayz...haha...work...dance...tkd...so many things >.< gonna be another long blog i guess..haha..

My last blog was on the 9th jul and today is 22nd jul...wow...many many days...lazy to count...lol..hmmm...lemme think...

10th jul
First meeting of rag...i wasnt able to go due to work...very paisei to disappear from work after taking one whole week of leave for the whole of previous week...this week whole week is work work work...cant remember much except even saturday also go back work...very song ar...get 1.5 times my current pay...meaning one hour earn more than 10bucks...lol...how i wish it's sat everyday...lol...dream on...haha...

17th jul
First time went for rag day...was fun...haha...know new frenz...then got allocated into the happy pigsy-ssss!! haha..they call it the couple dance...initially i did not practise with my partner...so i was partnered with another guy which i later found out that he was the best male camper...such a coincidence...then learn the dance steps...wah...very nice to dance...very elegant...very cool..haha...then wed and fri also go dance....then very happy that the improvement for everyone is very big...haha...then me all 3 days nvr join them for dinner...monday also not joining them for dinner cos going tkd...other than dance...my other days...tues and thurs is work...haha...life fully utilised...so satisfying...

21st jul
was QET day...the test...haiya....think no need lecturer mark i also can guess my result le...haha...sure confirm go take english de...its so difficult that some of the sentence i think that there's nothing wrong at all lor...not much comments...jus know english class waiting for me...haha...after test went dance...then after dance went on a walking journey...so long nvr walk so far le...so tired...but quality time spent....quite worth it...hee...

22nd jul
today...haha...morning went dance...then came home watch tv..no show...slack...eat...slp...til 4+ went to bath..then slp again til 5 then go out meet pri sch frenz...meijun and huijun...all the volleyball kakis...was reminded of some of the memorable times...quite of miss the old days...too bad meiru cant join us cos she's having a friendly match today...hope she did well...then now im home...tired...going slp le...haha...next week last week of work...meaning not a rest period for me for the whole holidays from grad til sch start...i pity myself sia...lol...oh yar...the nus tkd guy ask me to join them for some performance in pattern and asked me to go for pattern team selection...haiz...duno wat to do also...sianz...wanna join pattern but scare they will ask me go sparring as well...then join pattern liao..will cause one person in the current unconfirmed pattern team to be out...sianz...really duno wat to do...then dun join...then i wun feel as happy as well because i cant do pattern anymore...then is really no more tkd in life le...also sian....wat shld i do sia..haiz...aiya...is i think too much or wat...anyone can teach me wat to do???such a hard decision....

Hmm...not bad...haha...isnt as long as i tot it would be...lol...nitey!!

Raggers Rox!!

After camp side effect...lol..

2006-07-09T13:02:00.000+08:00

Haha...camp had ended for 2 days..and im still suffering from the after camp effectSSS..im still with a very hoarse throat...very tired...and very very tired...lol...

Yet everyday still go out..haha..how to recover??lol..even now when im blogging..im lying on my mum's facial bed..with my sis's laptop...feel like a worm...lazy worm...lol...alrite now lets talk abit on the camp...er...or maybe alot...lol...

The camp was great!!!it din disappoint me and had really let me forget all those troubles of the mind...and really let me unwind myself and enjoy it thoroughly...i think its one of the few greatest fun camp i had went..and i hope the head of the camp, cody knows it too...cos he is quite stressed up that some of the activities did not went smoothly...but overall its really great...

First day in camp..report..then go into our respective group...wah...my group...all from JC...im so xtra...lol...but it had been great fun hanging out with them...we played alot of games during the 3 days....play til i forget bits here and there le...ok...first day we played a whole lot of ice breaker games...some were quite new to me...and this time round..nt bad...i managed to remember their names...lol...usually i cannot remember more than 5 names at one go..lol...follow by putting of our luggages in the SR(seminar room).This is the first ever BRE-ARCHI (Building & Real Estate and Architecture) combined camp...the archits are very fun-loving too..haha...honestly i cant remember much about the first day le...only remember we went round the school to different place to play games then return to the Takeshi game station which was said to be the tradition game...haha..and thats the only game me and fei missed...cos we went back for tkd >.<>.
next morning...woke up for breakfast...it was the day we r going sentosa...played some competitive games...which i think is not very effective to build bonds among the campers...cos it actually brings out some cheating skills in ppl and caused some unhappiness in others...i will nvr forget that golden monkey cheater de lor...dislike him...stupid...he simply cheats in everything....and he is like an ah beng lidat... cant stand him...i personally feel that the games should have been like one group at one station and then take timing one...lidat ppl wun really see others cheat and hence lesser unhappiness even if they lose..hmm..duno lar...haha...next yr i suggest...if i remember...heez..then after the games is the tie-leg find way game...that game also not bad...shall not elaborate cos duno how to...haha...then lunch then amzing race around sentosa...we were given a clue and we have to go to the specific place to play some games and get the next clue...we managed to complete 3 stations...actually can complete 4 de...but aiya...the dragon trail too long..we din managed to find the game master at that station and times up..so we got to go back le...then a day at sentosa ended...so went back school..and wash up..slp...

last day...is pool game day...my group at first got 5 swimmers...2 guys 3 girls...then end up one girl cannot trap water then din play...one girl got cramp and din play too...kindof worry for her...scared me when she's struggling...i was too stunned to do anything...luckily the guy who plays water polo de jumped in to help her up...such a relief that she's alrite...then before the pool games...we had some free time and we went to buy a card for our OGLs...thx to the great idea contributed by cherie...haha...if nt we wouldnt have remembered to thank them..hee...then after the pool games...we had this talk by POWER98...quite fun..haha...we were on live broadcast becos one of the DJ had to make his roaming report...hee...then after the talk think its time for the talentime by us..we put up a skit...which i find it great...haha..its funny and entertaining...lol...lao wang mai gua zi mai zi kua..heez...then after the show time for home...gor was waiting already...so paisei...then the seniors cant find the key to the room...gosh...waited and waited.....then finally went home...

after camp went to search for black sesame paste with gor and joseph...hunger...plus tired....then i wasn't alert enuff to know that the time had past 12 and i forgot to wish dear happy birthday...gosh...im so lousy!!anyway hoped he had a great bday celebration on the actual day...oh yar...gor bought this very big pig....almost half of me...hee...for my bday...so happy...lol...the pig now take half my bed...lol...

the day after camp...celebrated dear's bday...and went national day preview on the 8th...of july...with parents and dear..so happy...

then today at home...din go grading...kindof resting..then later see after their grading whether i feel like going out anot...then decide whether to join them anot...

----------------BRE camp FLUX ROCKS!!!!-------------------

Special thankz to ppl who made the camp a success...

Groupmates:
Lilin,Jac See,Amenda,Xiuming,Yue Fern,Cherie,Clarence,Stamford,Gary
OGLs:
Reina,Audrey,Ethan,Matthew
Cody, the president of the camp
Game Masters and FOC committee members...they are great...!!
Fei fei: who accompanied me...thru bad and good during the camp...!fei's great!
Gor: for being the driver to send me back to NUS on monday and the driver to send me home after the camp...save me the hassle to squeeze bus/train after the camp with the luggages or might even have to take taxi thats very expensive..thx for his waiting too...
Joseph:thx for waiting in the car with gor...
Dear:who called to add sparkles to my night...

LOVE MY SCHOOL's PPL!!!!!BRE!!!PFM!!!ROX!!!!

Day be4 camp..

2006-07-02T14:00:00.000+08:00

Today is sunday...im staying home doing some planning...almost all set...so happy...

Tml 9am report at NUS for the SDE camp...then 4 days 4 nights wun be home...would be quite a fresh experience to slp in halls in uni..haha...

Recently many things had happened and i had blogged alot of my feelings in this blog...some of which may be things i feel at that moment...some of which are tots that are permanently in me...anyway...things are more peaceful today...parents not home...3rd sis went camp...2nd sis is out duno go where...teaching lil bro some maths and chinese stuff(sometimes he really get on my nerves!!grrr...)

Yesterday mum helped me do facial...we had some sort of talk during the session...i kindof voiced out some of my tots and she told me some of hers...i only hope things would be better...she told me that sometimes she thinks that im more "jian qiang" than her...english duno how to say lei...like strong/nt weak....duno...anyway sometimes i think so too =/ so bhb....sometimes when i meet with incidents that really break my heart i will recover by myself de...suddenly tot of something again...those few bad days within the last one month...i seems to be so lonely....din really look up anyone to lend a shoulder to cry on...am i really on my own in this world...is there someone who will always be there for me??sometimes i wonder....is there really ONE..jus one predestined other half...that will be with everyone of us til old...til death...i really wish that there will be this one person that will always be there...caring for me...asking about me...have this person appeared in my life?i really wish to know but i really duno....

I find it quite amazed with people who gets married and trust that they will be together forever...i used to believe in forever...but now things simply change overnight....nothing is the same forever de lei....will i ever experience the same confident as other woman who gets married??that the guy i marry will only wanna be with me in this life of his??its all so amazing..haha...sometimes i think i really think too much...tots jus rushed in me...

Hmmm....my perfect guy....someone who contacts me everyday letting me know that he is doing well..and ask about me as well...someone who dotes on me....someone who can get along well with my family and friends...someone who goes out with me often...drop by my house often and bring me to his house often....i have alot of emphasis on family values...he muz be a family guy(this species is close to extinction in the modern singapore days yet this is important to me cos of my upbringing bah)...hope he can bring me to different places i have never been to...enriching my life with new experiences....do things i had never done before(e.g. watch stars on a wide grassland)...haha...im so imaginative...willing to have both dog and children...muz share household chores with me...make decisions when im too lazy to think...yet respect my decisions when i speak up...gosh...where to find this guy...lol...will i even come across one in my life...haha...if he does not belongs to me...i better not meet this type of guy...haha...i rather believe that this perfect guy never exist...lol...craps...

Ok...back to reality....jus let those fantasies continue to exist in my fairyland...haha...

Saturday afternoon...

2006-07-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

It so warm now and it's my turn on the computer...mum's not home...some peace to deal with the com...

I am reading on the book "the five people u meet in heaven", just finished til the third person eddie met...now going on to the fourth person...the story was different from wat i imagined the book would tell...i tot it would tell me some specific type of people anyone would meet in heaven...but the story is jus illustrating who eddie met in heaven...even so the story was quite nice to read...alot of unexpected incidents which i think quite nice...anyway jade told me that she preferred "tuesdays with morrie"(the book from the same author), maybe will borrow from her after im finished with this...the title "tuesdays with morrie" reminds me of myself...cos me and him usually meet up on only tuesdays...short short day per week...jus a dinner of meeting time less than 1/4 day each week...and each week ended...haiz...

Today my company have this bowling competition...the facilities guy ask me to go and support them which i tot would be quite boring for me so instead i chose to stay home...today no dance class cos andrew has got something on...din went tkd either becos i think if i go would de-motivate the fighters...cos i dun really feel like sparring...jus wanna kick handmitts and armitt...and im so slack nowadays...was supposed to go watch garfield either yesterday or today but i doubt that would happened...as usual...disappointment should be expected de...

Next week whole week not working...going for SDE's orientation camp...monday to thurs...but monday will still go back to tkd with fei...then back to camp again...im looking forward for the camp because i'll get to slp in the halls of NUS...it's an experience i had been hoping for...will enjoy it thoroughly...last day would be at sentosa...til around 10pm...duno if i'll stay at sentosa and wait til fri morning then go home or jus go home on thurs night..see how fei wants it..hee...ooooo jus tot of it....maybe can ask gor to fetch...then go dinner with them...haha..i'll leave this decision til then....

I feel that life is very amazing...u can be so sad and down one moment and so happy and find life so fulfilling the next...my relationship with mum had improved abit...going back to wat it's like before...there's jus so many things to understand and i learning it bit by bit...

Recently i keep having this feeling that something is not right in my life....i feel that i am doing something that's not wat i should do...like doing something behind my conscience...but i cant figure it out...that feeling is not good...wanted to find the root of that bad feeling and solve it...but its jus sooo strange that i duno wat it is...is something terrible going to happen??aiyo...y i cant get it??this strange feeling is familiar cos everytime before something not good in my life is happening...this feeling sets in...im very worried...i dun like this feeling...the type which made u cannot sit still or slp well...

Today i woke up at 5+ to realised that im not working then went back to slp till 11am...so piggish...hmmm...nothing on agenda today...going to play rakion le...tml then pack my camping bag...then off the camp i go...throwing all those headache problem away for a few days...enjoy the days of no work and just fun!!

Rakion time...one more hour left >.<

Morning...

2006-06-28T07:40:00.000+08:00

Today once again was being made frustrated...worst thing is...it's the first thing in the morning...stupid...

this week sis they all start school le...so morning will be preparing to go school. then think my third sis need some clothes that haven dry then she blame the maid for not washing it early then my mum interfere to said that it was her own fault that she din wash it earlier...then she got frustrated..came in to the room as if she wan to cry...stupid...then she switched on the light...it was very irritating for me as i was slping on the top level of this 2-level bed...it was very warm as well cos the light was very near to me...i keep asking her to switch off the light the moment she goes out but she din...then worst of all...she keep coming in sitting there doing nothing...idiot...wah....hating everything more man...what the shit is happening to my life...?????does this happens to everyone? is my life normal? cant my life just goes on without anything that irritates me???all these questions have been going around in my mind...wat is happening...

i tried to make myself understand that these are all jus part and parcel of life...but when will this big parcel be sent away??isnt there anything at home that can make me wanna be home everyday??nowadays...home....seems to be a taboid in me...something i dun even wish to talk about to others...

i used to be so proud of my home...now...direct opposite...i wonder if the good old days will return...haiz...pathetic...

currently...im using this heck care attitude to go on with my life...thou i dun like it but i guess that's the only way to stay more positive about everything in my life...i dun wan let this home issue make my life miserable...i can do it!

Recovered....updates...

2006-06-27T08:10:00.000+08:00

Now in office waiting to start work…I have recovered from the hurtful day…once again riding on with my journey in life…

Just some recall and some updates…

23rd Jun
Work. At night went to eat international buffet with Liying…her treat for my bday...din really get to enjoy all the food as I was feeling unwell…so mei you kou fu…went to the toilet 3 times in one meal -_- think I ate something wrong in the afternoon…must be the chicken rice I had at the coffeeshop nearby my office…the buffet is situated at science centre nearby…going there brings back fond memories…wonder when will I have the chance to go science centre again…with my family…it seems yesterday that I went there happily with my family but haiz…I actually argued with my mum on Sunday…sianz…then after the main meal…we had dessert…their durian puffs was very nice…but have to wait for it to de-frost first cos it seems to be taken out from the freezer…so hard…the had quite a variety of cheesecakes…all very nice also…haha…so after dinner, we walked to Chinese garden mrt because it is more convenient for her to go home from there. Then we had talks and laughters along the way…after not seeing her for so long…around one month plus 2 mths lidat…we still crap like siao kin-na…haha..anyway was a nice bday spent with her…she bought me a present too…wasn’t anything great…but the stars which she folded it herself using straws were very touching…so glad and feel so lucky to have her as my friend…

24th Jun
Went NUS in the morning for an orientation day with fei fei and after that saw one of her friend there as well. The things they say all I read from the website before liao -_- so was quite boring for me >.<>.<>.<>.<

Ok time to start work…continue again next time…

Hurt....Deeply...

2006-06-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

Today is a bad bad day...from morning til night...nothing good had happened but all the bad things happened...

morning...disappointed...if i din ask...i would have been an idiot waiting stupidly at cck mrt...

afternoon....no mood...played computer...then mum start scolding the moment i touch the com...saying im often not home and the moment im home i stick to the computer...y is it always me everytime?!?!?!others play have no problem but the moment i touch the com...every bad scolding comes...y am i the only one responsible for my brother's education and results??!!y my other sisters have no responsibilty AT ALL to teach that lazy brother of mine?!?!?!y is all blames put on me whenever something goes wrong?!?!?!y doesnt the mother of the kid have any responsibilty to teach him!??!?!y is everything my fault?!?!y am i the eldest in the family!??!y mus i bear all these shit when i hardly have anymore energy to care?!?!?!y is my life in such a mess now?!?!!y the more i work hard to stay happy,the sadder i get?!?!?!y the harder i try to get life abit better, it gets much more worse?!?!?!?!?!WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

with all these in mind...i tried to calm myself down and go to slp...i switched off the com and went to slp...and she came in to scold AGAIN!! saying she asked me to switch off com to teach bro and not to slp...i angrily replied that i would only cane my bro if i teach him at that point of time...this is so sick....i am so sick of everything....then into my dreamland...the only time i feel stressless...then was woke up by my aunt's call...she ask me bout my outing today...i duno wat to say....not even my family wanna go...i dunno y i care so much to build more bonds when everyone seems to heck care about all these...as i said i told her wat happened in the afternoon...she say she'll try to have a talk with my mum when there's a chance...i hope she can do miracle...then at 7+ when im still lazing in bed cos i really dun wna to see her...i know the moment i see her..scoldings will come again...im devastated by everything....nowadays i dun feel like going home...i hate everything that is happening...i tried to source for happiness in other areas...but they were not long lasting...recently things that happened had proven my previous living theory right....the harder i work...the more i hope...and the mroe disappointment ill get but y am i still moving towards mroe disappointment and working harder each day???i hate my current lifestyle...the current life im living...i wan to get out of here....i wan to be independent and go out and live on my own....on the tot that i have to go for my uni and have to wait four years before i can go out work full time and live my own life....i feel so sick...everything seems so sick now cos im feeling very sick......sick of everything....tml still have to go work with enthu and smiles...which i duno if im still able to do it....it would be so fake and annoying.....i hate this.....

.....................hate me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.............................i really cant take it anymore....im going to break down...this sucks...........

Slacking in Office...

2006-06-22T09:32:00.000+08:00

Currently sitting in office doing nothing…so came in to da fa my time…IM SO BORED…I think I got a lot of things to do but I duno wat to do…my manager haven come in to the office yet so I also duno wat I should do…think all the things I can do I had do finish le…now can only drink my tea and blog down here…omg...haha…today my aunt took leave so im sitting at reception area…helping to take care of the reception area…so even blogging also must be secretly de…>.< everything muz be done discretely..lol..

Okie..things that cannot be done openly must end quickly…so I sign off le..haha…so bo liao…so sian…anyone got suggestions on wat to do in the office while having nothing to do and yet no one can find out de???lol…dumb….haha…

Birthday Birthday XD

2006-06-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

So long never blog le...haha...so today muz blog...blog to mark this special day in my life...the day that would be special every year in time to come...lol...

As the saying goes...time really flies...and here i am....having lived 20 years on earth...haha...kind of sad cos not TEENager anymore...lol...

today is a happy day...since 12am...receiving well wishes from friends...feeling is great...then morning wake up went work...got presents from colleagues...so touched...then got cake somemore...chocolate brownie!!yummy!!!!then my manager gave me chocolate......fav!!haha...dun wan fat also very hard...lol...then came home...got parents' ai xin wan chan....very long never eat their cooking le....cos got maid =( then today da kai sa jie...got prawn balls and chicken wings and MIAN XIAN by mama!! now still feel bloated =X and soon going to eat cake...>.< siao liao siao liao....fat fat fat.....tml muz eat very light....heez....but overall very very happy today XD

since i last blog....jus to list down some of the things that took place...

13th june 06- my graduation: daddy mummy went for my graduation...im so happy....its the first time they went to my school to attend a event...wah...now i sound so pathetic...lol...

18th june 06- graduation dinner & dance: went with jing onn...the only nice program of the night was the humourous program by a performer Ben. He came from london....he is such a successful comedian...i was laughing all the way thru out his show but something very stupid in his show...he go and use ballon for his performance -_- made me so tense up...as compared to the lame magician who performed later on...he is like the best...haha...that magician was like saying very lame jokes which made people dun feel like laughing -_-.....then the food...disappointing....not a dinner lor....should be call graduation buffet & dance....so stupid...got to go take our own food....so paisei lor....dun dare to take too much....lol....then end up din eat much...but the food was jus alright only....haha...

9th, 10th & 11th june 06- growing up camp: the activities was similar to the last camp i went...although the activities is the same...but the tots that came to me are different...going to this camp had once again gave me the opportunity to reflect on many things...sorted out alot of my thinkings...i had enjoyed myself as much as the first camp...haha...i was so happy that i found the pair of hands which i was supposed to find back (while being blindfolded) among the pool of hundred over people...it is so rare...and it made me appreciate the feeling of following my heart...using my heart to feel alot of things...something i learnt " all of us look different but in actual fact...we r all the same...we jus have to see everyone's inside..."this way we will be able to treat everyone with respect....another session was saying we humans are jus like the bananas...haha...cos we used banana to went through that session...so.....ok bananas...all bananas look different from the outside...but inside...no matter which banana u eat...u will not know if they are different or not....it means that all of us may look different from outside...but there is potential in everyone of us and we must never live our life the way a chicken does...jus staying in our comfort zone and enjoy the peas which the farmer gave...then end up getting slaughter...each of us is believed to be born as an eagle...and we must soar to new heights...learn to grow....learn to accept failures...with a smile...many times...when im sad...disappointed...or angry...i would remind myself things i learnt and make the choice of living my days happily...nowadays im feeling better even when i feel that more things are complicating...lol...bad things still happens and since i cant change the situation..i will change my reaction to the situation and things have definitely got better than before...everything....i remember my relationship with my parents was very down before i went for the camp....but things are better now and i feel so much happier =D

17th june 06- first time to night safari!!: haha...im so happy that i finally got to go to night safari!!!XD going there for the first time at my age is abit late lar...haha...maybe thats y i feel like a small kid when i went there...im so excited...so happy...i dunno y...the tot of going to see animals really excites me...lol...i think i still haven grow up cos i really love to go those places...but they are all so expensive!!!omg...luckily that time got the 50% discount...haha...thats y went there...haha...but after that 50% discount...with entrance fee at $10...i still have to pay $8 for the tram ride...so total $18...so its still very expensive...lol...i feel abit guilty....cos i asked all of them go thinking could save money to go there happy happy...but end up so ex....but still im very happy..haha...the animals are sooooo cute....love them lots!!how i wish can everyday go zoo, jurong bird park or night safari >.< if next time got chance to work at a pet shop where got dogs one...i surely go!! but i dun have any knowledge on taking care of them duno who will hire me...sad...haha...anyone got lobang in pet shop as a part time job muz jio me ar!!!

ok....tentatively i can only remember all these....cos quite brain dead already....

IM SO HAPPY TODAY!!! XD

.............and i will be happy everyday!!!!its my choice...hahaha!!! =D

Early in the morning...

2006-06-06T07:54:00.000+08:00

Time now 7.50am...i am in the office eating my breakfast....beehoon with fish cake and luncheon meat....and a cup of hot milo beside...so fragrant...enjoying man...

now waiting for 8am to start work..haha...

today is a brand new day...and im not going to let anything that is past affect my mood...brand new day...brand new smile...i wan to stay focus on now than then....

happy today....hooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sad sad sad...

2006-06-05T22:59:00.000+08:00

i duno why i feel so stressed up recently...agitated at the slightest thing that happen...

yesterday was ultimate sadness...whole day stayed home...nothing to do...so played computer...then mum afternoon come back saw me playing start to scold...then saw a bowl of finished maggi on the table then say i everyday eat maggi mee...say i eat non-nutritious stuff...then i say i only ate this once in the last many many months lor..then she say normally i eat outside not noodles meh? then i was like -_- wat link is there....haiz...then she say i always never go home for dinner...but in actual fact i feel like i was always home whenever i can le lor...one week only twice nt home for dinner...at most three times...but she lidat say then i very buay song...was agitated...so i said in an annoyed tone..."i always eat at home lor...everytime i eat at home u not home lor..." then she ask "where got?" then i straight away say "u always go those sunrider things...i at home eat dinner u also nvr see lor...still say i not home..."wah...i super pissed off...then i very upset cos the thing i hate most is people maligning me for something i din do and saying things that r not true...esp when she is so impt to me and yet she lidat say me...im really heartbroken....haiz...
then being pissed off..i switched off the laptop and went to slp...whenever im unhappy or sad..i go slp...so that when i wake up ill be able to be the happy me again...dun wanna be bothered by all these...then i woke up at ard nine when my maid asked me to eat dinner...then i ate dinner and took over my sister to use the computer...within 15mins...she came home again...and the same old phrase....whole day stay home play computer....wah lao!!!i only played 15mins lor....super super pissed...but i jus ignored...then later she talk on the phone with her upline in sunrider...i think she asked her when is the laptop ready for presentation...earlier i know dun wan to promise to help her ar...now like all the responsibility on me lidat...nt even a word of grateful...the laptop dun have those microsoft software after reformatting and im already trying very hard to source for it within my circle of friend le...then of course need to gif ppl some time to find de mah then she jus everytime blame me say i nvr get the laptop fixed...wat the....then she complained to her upline somemore!!!stupid lar....fed up!!!then she ask me when the laptop will be fixed...but how will i know???!?!?! it all depends on when my fren finds the software mah....really very angry+upset lor...then i reply "duno lar...when my fren found the software then fix lor....now can use sis's one first mah..." then she nvr ask my sister's for help de lor...everything wait for me to settle....everything also wei juan wei juan.....i hate this.......!!!! then worst still i think is cause her god-daughter's mother afternoon came our hse say me takl to my mum then commented that i talk so "mei da mei xiao" and because she very love "mian zi" one so she even more wan to scold me!!haiz...im already very stressed already lor....with so many things in mind...nothing is going smoothly recently...everything in a mess....my life is in a mess..... i felt so helpless...i switched off the computer and went slp again...stupid...im living a life of pig!!damn useless!!sad sad sad...cry whole night....cannot slp....then reflect on alot of things.....i know i shldnt have speak loudly to her but the situation really make me go mad....i wanted to be nice to her...but she always blame things on me when i know nuts about them....its as if i mus know everything and everything muz wait for me to settle...im going to break down soon....i couldnt get to slp....then i woke up to use computer again...then went friendster approved gor and joseph's testimonial...and also wrote testimonials for them...then being frustrated...i go slp again....how to not pig...who can tell me???
today went work as usual...i forced myself to smile...i din wan ppl to know i unhappy because the ppl in my office are very friendly and i dun wan to worry them....but miracle-ly....i really not so stress up after one whole day of work...i like being around my manager because she is humourous...as in her laughters are very contagious...u very sad...u hear her laughter u will automatically be happy de...duno y...haha..i feel so happy working for her....
jus now joseph came my hse to help me install ms office...so grateful to him...now the laptop is in working condition le...i hope all these family headaches can end soon....haiz....
im so stressed up til i wish i can dun come home lor....last time i always wan to go home de...but now....if my mum is at home...i dun feel like going home...im really very stress....haiz....
i believe all these will be over soon...i feel so lonely...i am so alone............................sadly............

Ultimate late slp nights week

2006-06-04T00:46:00.000+08:00

The first part is supposed to be for yesterday's blog...i typed finished then cannot load...so load it today...

Title: Getting plumpish...

Recently i discovered that im getting fatter...sianz...how sia...cant resist the temptation of food...everyday eat outside...eat till sianz....nowadays other than fish bee hoon and mee hoon kway...there seems to be nothing edible that is not figure-threathening...lol...worst of all...my chocolate craving is getting greater and greater...how am i to deal with it?!?!?!i ate them..lol...thus explaining the situation im in now...developing un-requested surplus of watery living cells around the stomach region...what rubbish...haha...im crapping...yet really got more of them le...sad sad...

Yesterday don't have tkd training so the gang went to k-box instead...im kindof tired after staying up for many nights...around 2+ then slp everyday....for a week....wah...really cant take it le...muz slp early soon....wah...i wan to complain ar!!! stupid k-box at lot one have such a stupid attitude waiter...really cannot stand it...he' s so rude and behaves like a hooligan!!!stupid stupid stupid....dun ever wanna go there again....stupid experience...to think that i had wasted so much money there during sec sch days...then around 1+ stupid snortz sent everyone home...7 ppl in his car...with mr ADAM...lol...nvr squeeze till lidat for a very very long time liao...haha...then first is bee siang's home...then is my home...then when nearing my house...sudden hunger rushed in and had to take a bite...then all went 888 for Supperfast (combi of supper & breakfast)...on the car...there was this hoo-hoo talk which had led cl to the highest climax of being high on beer/wine/watever that can cause ppl to go high...she is so into this hoo-hoo thing that she shouted and shouted...haha...hoo!!!like nvr be4...lol...then this hoo-hoo talk continued all the way til i reach home...then while snortz sent me up..he keep hoo-ing as well-_-...wth...everyone is having this hoo-hoo talk...so mad...and so...the day ended....

today went work...shld be quite tired...but was quite refreshed...duno why..haha...maybe yesterday luffed alot which resulted in the good mood...haha...been quite long since i had such great laugh...er...to me...2 days dun luff lidat is very long le..haha...life would be so saddening...then after work went to meet cl, joseph, bon and her fren for shopping...heh...din buy much...only bought a blouse to go with the blazer for my grad ceremony on my way the train station...then when having dinner...cl got so high hoo-ing...lol...super funny...guess this hoo-inh thingy is gonna stay as a main topic among the gang for quite some time...haha...now i gonna go and watch the hoooo!!! to see how hoo is this hoo-ing thingy...hahaha...

----end of it----now for today-----

today is another fully utilised day....now im chatting and watching hooooooo-ing video...haha...
today morning went dancing...then tkd...then IMM for lunch with the tkd ppl then PS for swensen (treat lei... XD)...then home...super exhausted...esp when i have to carry that duno how many kgs de encyclopedia which joseph gave to my bro...the way from IMM to jurong east MRT was already killing me...din realised it was so heavy til the paper bag string snap..lol....sian lor...have to hug it all the way....

this whole week everyday also so late slp...really tired sia...tml muz slp more to bu hui the body's energy...slp slp slp....omg...and today i ate so much....fat fat fat!!!

Tired lei...

2006-05-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

Duno wat's up with me lei...i had been very lethargic...had been slping late...today like now is also late...just watched finish the korean show...wat a happy ending...

This story is about this movie star boy who like this movie star girl...but the movie star girl like another guy in the same industry but is not a star....(abit confusing i know...just read it a few more times...haha...) then this movie star boy was searching for a house... then this girl of his life appeared...that girl got cheated by her 2 best fren(who were one couple)...that couple sold her house when she was overseas holidaying (they gave her the free air ticket to China de)..then the house was bought by this movie star boy...then she used up all her money in china...borrowed money from him after some lies...came back to find out that all her money in the bank and house...all gone...then few days later realised that it was the movie star boy who bought over her hse...then ask him to return it to him...then because the guy have all the documents properly legaly done...he chased her out...then she slept outside whole night then fell sick..then he shocked then brought her in and took care of her...after she recovered..he offered her(refering her as a beggar) to be his maid(because he like cleanliness very much...cannot even a spect of dust in his house one).. he always scold her...and she always scold back...they always argue...but he always use his status as his employer to shut her mouth...then got once she secretly took his invitation to this movie stars party where all the publisher and those movie co boss will be there de...then she went(cos she is a web story writer..and she thinks that she will be able to buy back the house and repay that movie star boy all his money once someone accept her story...)then that INITIALLY evil (but later more sensible) movie star girl was rejected by that guy she liked(and becos that guy say the movie star boy like her so much..so she tot he was the reason for the rejection...so she very angry) then she went to confront the movie star boy loudly in front of many ppl if he really like her so much...then that movie star boy say "YES...i like u very much..!" then she pulled that "maid of his" and kissed her....there it all starts...they got married...but on contract marriage...he had employed her as her wife...they still continue to argue...but whenever any of them come home late...they will wait for each other...they always argue on the outside...but care alot for each other on the inside...then maybe u guys shld go and borrow this vcd le...so long and im jus only at the starting....its a very nice show...get it and watch it...forgot its name le... inside the movie star boy call "lee an zai" and the "maid" is call "han zi en"...

ok...something about today...today went work...then manager nvr come...super nothing to do...i slack one whole day...kindof not used to it..still prefer the days when she's around and ask mwe to do many many things...haha...im mad...lol...then after work went trg..today i leave work on the dot lei...even be4 the bus arrive...im waiting le...first time...then after trg...beesiang and joseph went see x-men with woodlands tkd ppl...then me and jing onn went hawker at westmall there to eat...then on way home...he ask me muz put this inside my blog "today jing onn's car's buttock got scratched AGAIN!!! so kind ppl...pls donate to mr phon jing onn so that he can cover up the scratches before his dad discover it AGAIN...." wahahaha!!!

isnt there anything that can brighten someone's day? i so sian nowadays....nt feeling good...duno y...haiz...go slp le...tml then think...hope i have sweet dreamz tonight..!!yeah!!

Bloggy

2006-05-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm...just realised that i haven been blogging for quite some time...

Suddenly cant think of wat had been happening over the past few weeks...>.<

There was NPTKD camp...hmmm...trainings...work...wat's more? haha...realised my life quite boring sia...even thou there seems to have so many activities going on but seems like i duno how to talk about them...

Recently had been very guai...always stay home...esp today...stayed home all day long...watch some korean love story vcd which my mum borrowed from her fren...haha...the show is addictive...til now then i stopped cos i jus remembered that tml is monday and i had promised my aunt to do a nice family photo with some of the photos she had took...haha...last min work...but still hope to make it a nice one...hmm...my mum hor...upon seeing us all staying home to watch the vcd which she had borrowed...she said that she's going to borrow more to make us stay at home...haha..my mum zhen shi yong xin liang ku ar...so nice to have such a great mum..

Father's day is around the corner...not too long ago heard that his taxi short of a head supporter...so tot of getting one as father's day gift...nvr expect it to be so expensive sia($12.90 to me is very expensive le =X)...ytd jus went to suntec with gladwin and joseph to get it de...hope he like it...this yr's dad's bday gave him a scent burner...with a lavender scent oil...til now he still haven use it before...kindof disappointed...but hope this head supporter he will use it everyday =)

Soon im going to Malacca again...for another growing up camp...this time round...my sis is going too...my pri sch best fren's mum is worry bout her daughter thus she cant go...joseph's reply is still pending...then no more ppl interested le...maybe ppl who knew about it would think that its a waste of money to go bah...im not really sure if this would be beneficial to everyone but i still hope to see more frenz go together....can play games and have fun and learn together muz be a very nice feeling...due to my mum's objection, i had not been able to go to other country with frenz thus i tot this would be a good chance for me to go out to other country with frenz...haha...so stupid...duno wat im talking le...

Oh yar...i had accepted NUS offer le...i have decided to give it a go at this new course...on the tot that i dun really have a strong interest for any course or module...i really wish to try my best for this course and get a degree...i want my parents to be happy and be proud of me...i know i shouldnt do anything just for the sake of others...but knowing that my parents are so supportive...i really dun wish to see any disappointment...so i would tell myself that im not just studying to see the happiness in my parents but also for my own future...

People often tell me that living in this world...we should do things for ourselves...then we will be happy...but i duno why...this does not apply to me...maybe im stupid...or silly...i keep having this tot that this is a very simple world...even if its very complicated...i hope that at least around me...the world would be simpler...often...when i really do something for myself...the sense of satisfaction or should i say the happy feeling which i get is not as great as the satisfaction/happiness i get when i make someone else happy...and whenever i hurt someone or did something which make ppl angry or disappointed...i would feel worst...am i strange or wat...haiz...

Had been thinking alot....really alot...recently had started the habit of reading as well...saw this book on the 12 secrets to happiness...find it very interesting and read it...the book accompanied me wherever i go...i love it alot....its a book which i borrowed from my office....this book had enlighten me but im not sure if im able to carry out wat the book teach to live happily in this stressful society of constant change...another reason for me to start reading is because i hope to improve my english...cos on the tot of having to take another module call "english" in uni make me feel that it would be a waste of time and money...lastly...i realised that having a book accompanying wherever u go is really a great feeling cos waiting for someone or travelling far is no longer a bored thing to do =)

ok lar...i should go and do my stuff then faster go slp le...if not tml will be panda le...haha...will update again soon...and will talk about the korean love story...haha..very nice... ^^

Uni or not? Tough crossroad...

2006-05-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Recently had been living a relaxing life with all that holidays keep coming in(this means no money too =X)life had been so relaxing...everything so good...scare later no more energy to chiong sia...

Today first day of the hip hop dance lesson...not bad except the hands legs and body combi movement still kindof weird...duno why...maybe i not relax enuff...now...at night le still can remember the dance steps but i think tml sure all return to that teacher...MR. Andrew -_- stupid teacher with his stupid house rule of 20mins late can go home le..stupid...wat if i really stomachache?!?!?! then waste my money!!!how can?!?!?!unfair!!!grr....!! So after lesson went home...chiong rakion...and slack around...

At night all my relatives came to my house to celebrate mother's day...everyone jus gather around and talk...it is so interesting to listen to the conversation of adults...there is jus so much to learn...and sometimes can contribute ur grievance as well...my fav..haha..

ok...for a few days nvr blog...lets see wat i remembered...whole week alot of holidays (thou abit repeating) so got the chance to go out..haha..this week also got quite a few days OT meaning more $$..lolz...on monday, i brought my sis to tkd to play play...haha...as expected...her legs cannot take the training...but duno if its me who had always been missing that "xiong" part of the training or had they suddenly became so xiong...i also find it abit xiong..heex =X then after that went to eat...duno where's that but i know its jurong's area...then yesterday(fri,vesak day) went to striker's place to sample kelvin sir's cooking...spag...wow...the sauce is superb...keep asking him wat he add but he dun wan to say...end up found out that it's a sauce which he bought from the supermarket-_- and all the while he act as if he prepared the whole sauce with some secret recipe sia...but overall he did add something and it's really very very nice...!!yummy!! be4 going striker's house we went supermarket...bee siang and me was tempted by the durians right in front of shop & save so we just bought it while the rest were still shopping and ate it!! can u imagine?? 2 goondu eating durian outside shop & save like nobody's business...lol....so fun!!then reach striker's home...oh my gosh!! his cousins were soooooooooo cute!! esp that lil girl...she is so adorable and makes people wan to hug her so much...cos she is so small in size...really super cute...then after everything ended...they went ktv and i went home cos my mum not happy i stay out late often sia...recently she had been complaining bout me going back to tkd even thou i had graduated...i know she cares for my health but tkd is my commitment and passion which is wat i find it hard to communicate to her..so i had been going home early and hope this would please her more as well...

this year's mother's day gift is very special...haha...after giving her so many presents for her bday, mother's day, watever day...i had ran out of ideas...so i gave her the wax strip!! XD It's kindof weird to gif this but haha...who cares..lol...

lastly, after being rejected by SMU and NTU...i gave up hope on NUS and had intended to find a full time job...but jus when i tot everything is set and no uni wanna accept me...here comes NUS's letter of offer..i duno to be happy or sad over it...happy because i got a place in NUS...can persue a degree/honour(duno wat's the diff)...sad because they had offered me a duno wat chapalang course which is so alien to me...wat project and facilities management...i am really very troubled over this...if i go for it, it would be a risk im taking because i had not touch science for like 4 yrs? or so...but im afraid if i dun go for it...ill regret it in future if im not able to get into any course for a degree...these few days i had been thinking...is degree really that important?am i ready to take up this challenge of studying a course which i had nvr tot of studying before?im really in a dilemma...few days back...my colleagues ask me to think if i had any interest in the course and dun go for the course jus for the sake of degree...and worst of all...the facilities manager in my current company straight away say "u????not suitable lar..." when he heard of NUS offering me this course...going around without any positive encouragement is really hard to make a decision...today my relative came to my house...uncle francis who is like one of the most frequent traveller most knowledgeable and also the most successful career among our family & relatives told me to go for it because he say that bachelor of science is not so easy to get a chance one...and most important of all...it worth more than business degree in the market...im really in a confusion...but one thing im sure is that my parents really hope to see me go uni because all parents hope the best for their kids...i would go for it if im from a well-off family...but on the tot that im going for something which i had nvr tried be4 made me scare that i will waste my parents money...my current tot after hearing so much and with those encouragement from my mum and dad...i would really like to go for it...really...but i still wan to find out more before i really make this final decision that would utilize a big sum of money which will also cause my parents to have to work even harder...muz really think over it seriously...who can save me??is there really god? can god come and gif me some advice in my dreamz tonight??

Concluding all...i am so tired recently from all those thinkings and personal sorting out of tots...for my personal things...i had decided to gif it my best, try all i can to make things better and accept the final decision that life has for me...will gif up if i have to...regarding my uni offer...let time help me sort things out...chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi...

For a start...

2006-05-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

Previously i did not have any blog because i always change my thinkings..nothing is confirmed..
Now it had been a week since i went for the "growing up camp" organised by Sunrider in Malacca with my mum. i must say that i had gained quite a bit from this camp. i am more sure of my future path and is more open to changes. i detested changes before i went for the camp and through this camp, i learnt the way to success is to "keep improving" which is to keep changing. In this camp i learnt to do more and expect less, cos we'll never know when we can gain something carelessly from our bu xiao xin de fu chu. This is kindof an inspirational camp and i would like to introduce this camp to anyone who wish to be successful in life. They not only talk about how to be successful in Sunrider on the last day(jus a lil bit) where successful people share their experiences, they also teach us to be grateful for everything we are enjoying now. If u r not those who wish to be very successful like me, u can also go for this camp as a kind of relaxation because they do play games and u get to know new friends too XD. The most unforgettable event was the "gratitude night" where i were reminded of the many things which my parents had done for me. The whole ballroom scene was very touching with everyone crying thinking back on how their parents had been taking care of them, some being regret of the way they are treating their parents now and i think the situation should improve after they go back. As for me, i had always been very grateful for everything my parents had done and i wil continue to show them the utmost respect they deserved and also to love them more each day!! I'm sure anyone who goes there enjoys it, at least i do. LOL >.<

A LiL AdVerT:
Missed it? Nevermind...haha... On June 9,10,11 (fri, sat, sun), there will be another one at Malacca as well...also at $100+!! where to find rite???!! Such inspirational camps in Singapore is always like maybe a thousand? or at least $500? for the fee of the talker? So its a deal not to be miss...contact me if ur interested k? =D

Ok, back to my tots..now i had started to blog because im more sure of wat i want and therefore not having to worry wat i wrote yesterday was not wat i meant today..heex..

Hmm...jus some updates...today stayed home whole day doing this blog template...MANY MANY MANY.....MANY MANY THANKS to my sister who already started to help me with this blog template since yesterday. She's more familiar with it cos she already have a blog since duno when..lol...cos im also kindof hard to please lar...this template change abit here abit there...spent alot of effort then got this very special mouse...haha...HTML is so hard to understand!!!argh!!>.< Then around 4+ mei jun asked me out...she's my primary school BESTEST friend..so glad that we r still in touch...having a 10 over years friendship is so nan de...went shopping, crapping, complaining, laughing and sharing our current life is such a great thing to do!

This ended my day happily and now this conclude my first post.
P.S. The first post by my sister NOT COUNTED!!!! Grrr...!!! LOL....

2006-05-07T06:32:00.000+08:00

Blah .`
just for testing ;p
her sister here~!
hahahhahahehehehhehehohohohohooho .!!
nice blog!! im lovin' it!lolx