Lil StarKey

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Rare update! lol...

Been another long long time since i last blog...there's really too many things that have happened and i really dun have the time to blog all of them down. Just a short summary of the major events that took place over the last few months...

May: Meijun's bday (thou celebrated in april)

June: My Birthday Party!! XD (Super alot of ppl! enjoyed it thoroughly! and of cos....the gifts were great as well! love em all!!)Thanks to all who were here!!
This year's june me and darling treat each other to the BIG MEAL on 24th june. i treat him to Imperial Garden Chinese Restaurant (got lobster, shark fin, veggie, sea coconut w/ almond jelly and cod fish!) heez...then at night he treated me to Sushi Kikuzawa! Best sashimi i've ever eaten. but the price to pay was really high too. 2 person for $110!! plus i got rashes on my neck after that..haha but really worth the great taste!
...and also not forgetting phy and bernard's combined bday aprty and also the swiss gathering at Marche! =D

July: SDE FOC (in fact i just came back from it) Overall think my OG nt really one of those who are super enthu de but enjoyed the camp still lar. just think that it could have been better if my OG members could be more enthu. and hope they'll join RAG as well. will be quite disappointed to see none of them in RAG. one advice i would give to everyone who goes to camp. esp such orientation camp, just go and be crazy and mad!!u'll make lots of great new friends. and my advice to ppl who goes to this type of camp and everything also dun wanna try: jus stay home and watch TV or play computer games cos the camp would be even more fun without u around.; Another big event is Darling's birthday!! (went sakae sushi with him ytd and saw jonathan(my OG member whose birthday is the same as darling! such a coincidence!)

Since so many big events took place, it would take me a long long time to blog them all. guess i'll jus leave them in my memory..haha...talking about memory...my memory have been failing me...alot of things i cant remember. even things that just took place, say yesterday, i also can forget!alot of things need my darling to remind me. Darling's da best!! *bet he'll say "OF COURSE!"* lol...simply loves him....

ok since i so long din blog le. i started browsing my sister's blog and saw this and tot i could do it to make my entry longer?lol...

Part 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Wei juan
Date of Birth: 21st June 1986
Current Status: Attached
Eye color: black (dark brown)
Hair color: Black (but sometimes brown...i also duno =X)
Righty or Lefty: Righty ( i should be lefty if my mum din change me when i was young.
Zodiac Sign: Gemini + Cancer

Part 2: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: Chinese & Cantonese
Your fear: Not appreciated. Being maligned.
Your weakness: No confidence. Impatient. Can't lead.
Your perfect pizza : Hawaiian Pizza (Loves mushroom and pinapples!)

Part 3: Yesterday,Today and Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Darling!!
Tomorrow: Work
Your bedtime: Darling!!
Your most missed memory: Pri sch life with mei jun around to crap with me after school everyday. i love the feeling of having a company whom u know she'll be there with u no matter where u go or do...

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: None. dun like gas-sy drink =/
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King if i have to choose one. but i still prefer Long John follow by KFC! =D
Single or group dates: for relationship - single date! for frenz - group date!
Adidas or Nike: Nike. i think their designs are nicer. but some people told me they use child labor then i abit shaken =X
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!!
Cappuccino or Coffee: Prefer mocha!haha..

Part 5: DO YOU..
Smoke: Tried before when i dun even know that's call a cigarette...lol...
Curse: Definitely but never in vulgarities!

Part 6 : IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: Hmm...yea i guess...champagne consider right?lol..
Gone to the mall: Of cos...just went AMK Hub today for subway breakfast as well as lunch (2 diff meals k...thou same place...haha....ALONE! =/)
Eaten Sushi: Of Cos!!
Dyed your hair: Never before

Part 7: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 minute ago: Blogging
1 hour ago: Just came back from tuition (reach there, he told me he forgot so i came back...thinking i can rest earlier as well =D)
A month ago: i have short term memory...should ask darling about this...
1 year ago: wah...totally cannot remember....think is the day after celebrating darling's bday lor...lol...or maybe went stadium to watch the national day("family day" tickets) with darling and my parents if it was on the 8th july =X

Part 8: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I love: my darling!!! and family too!
I feel: irritated now with my neck rash and leg's flesh split. =(
I hate: it when my effort is not appreciated or when someone say things that are not true about me.
I hide: i dun really hide anything. lidat i dun feel so burden.
I miss: my darling....very much.....very very much......
I need: food!!!!!

Part 9 : TAG 5 PEOPLE
wat does this means???lol....

ok lar...that's all for now!

Still In Love3:58 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Gonna get so busy...

Exams are nearing...gonna get so busy soon...this term's modules ar...the teachers very strict sia...no hints de =( lol...thou wat they are doing is right but no hints is really sad...maybe cos we too use to hints le...haha...today very fulfilling...2 reports in day...so shoik! all cleared...but things might not be as smooth yet...tml is 2105 presentation...maybe after tml still got alot of things to alter...anyway dun care le...tml if die then change more lor...haha...

Recently got this tot of keeping a diary sia...as in physical one...one which really can write everything i feel...but how can i make sure that everything inside will only be known to me lei??ltr my sis open how?ltr mum open how?and worst~!!!!...if my MAID open how?!!? -_- sian ji bua...wah...really dislike her more and more...sianz~!!!today i ask her vacuum a place which she missed out....she even say i was blocking her way so she nvr vacuum!!! then somemore when i moved away and asked her to vacuum...she even STARE (those that can pick up a fight in the gangster world de) at ME!!! wat the....she owner or me owner sia!!! she always got all sorts of reason to cover her backside one!hurmp!!hate her to the max!!! and gosh!!!i still got 1 yr and around 7mths plus with her!!!!!argh!!!!!!i hate ppl like her type....always so fake!!!even her smile is soooo fake!plus worst is she is those that do wrong thing dun confess de!! that time she went to flip my parents income tax...duno for wat reason but i spotted her and yet she can say she din flip and din see anything...then stupidly after seeing me dun believe her + i told her ill tell my mum (i know i quite stupid also...shldnt let her know i telling mum) then she confessed that she went to flip those documents but she dun understand a word of it...wat is there to understand when it's all numbers???how fake!!and who will believe that she dun understand when her previous job in indonesia was insurance agent!!! how can she duno?!?! faker....hate ppl like her....

i am sooo pissed with her....usually only backstabbers (who are also fakers) and ppl who say things without going thru their conscience (anyhow malign ppl one) will make me hate them....in fact i despise them!!!hurmp!!!

Still In Love9:13 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

some thoughts...

haha...at my bf's house again...lol...he helping me convert my videos (hopefully sucessful) from quick time to wmv format...if cannot then die le...stupid window movie maker...why cannot read quick time...microsoft powerpoint also!hurmp! y muz they lidat fight with each other...dun they know that it's consumer who lose out the most???!!!! sian lor...fei and my video cam both have quicktime output then now cannot edit with movie maker...and worst...cannot input into powerpoint!! aargh!!!stupid!!!!

anyway that's nt the main thing i wanna blog about....actually a few days ago...i have this tot of ending this blog...had this training session and was reminded of one thing....anyone u duno can actually come to your blog...read about it save it and in future may use it against u...suddenly makes me feel so insecure to vent frustrations or anything in blog...i also heard that even if you've made ur blog private...people will still be able to go into your blog...so scary...im not sure how long i'll still be maintaining this blog but since im still blogging here, i shall try my best to avoid some sensitive topics and naming names...this issue have been brought up because one of my fellow colleague blogged about his/her work on his/her blog...then used some very obscene language...then management saw it and was not very happy about it...maybe that person really went too far but i still think we can blog about our work bah...just mind your language and not identify the specific company and specific incident with all the specific names...haha...imagine you r those daily blogger and your whole day is at work today and you cannot blog anything about it...thats sad man...lol...

ok...another case...i dun understand y some ppl can grow so old le and still be a very petty soul. wat i mean by old is like 40+? and it's like half their life gone le yet they can still sulk for days over ppl not helping them. the thing is when he ask me for help, im really busy. y is he so unreasonable????stupid lor....cant he see how many things i've done for him???i dun understand lor...i tot ppl grow old liao, after seeing more things, should be more open-minded...sianz...then he can dun talk to me for days!!!!!!!!even when i thicken my skin and go talk to him, he can just ignore me!!!wah lao....really angry....how can someone so old be so unreasonable!!!!y he can keep ignoring me when i talk to him?????wah lao.....sian!!!!somemore live under same roof...the feeling is sooooo awkward!!!!!hate it man....ytd talked to my sis about it...she told me he's like that de....she got a tv incident with him also....then he ignore her for weeks!!!! and i find this so childish!!!!! got once when me and mum was preparing bday cake for my brother....he wanted my youngest sis to help too but she playing her last round in game so can't stop...then he go and close her light....omg....give me the impression that "if i have to do it...u have to do it too" like those childish kid who mind to do a bit more job in anything lor....everytime say we only know how to play game and duno how to contribute to the home....wat the...my youngest sister have been working every weekend to help earn some income...2nd sis doing 2 jobs....thou now her holiday but still she is trying her best to help lor...and everyday slog so hard jus to heard him say that we are doing nothing to help!!wat the....and me lei....i take up 2 tuition...work in sch and work in my aunt's company...all i get is also din contribute to the home....i duno y im doing all these for....he think studying is really as simple as ABC???y muz i do his stuff that will easily take up an hour of my time when my project is dueing???then after i submitted that project, got a lil bit of time to play game...then he have to think that stupid way of me no time to help him but got time to play game....stupid lei....ppl explain....he dun wan to heard....so stubborn and so childish man!!!!gosh.....haiz......case end here....dun wanna talk about it anymore....

yesterday night went to some block party with my mum, sis and bro...actually im jus attracted to go becos of food....haha....then at night when we return home...i asked my mum to go buy champedak!!!omg...so long nvr eat le...then jus nice the pasar malam got sell...haha....then my sis saw durian so end up bought both...the durian super ex...one box $15!!in the end after some bargaining...it became $18 for 2 box...suddenly felt like im in thailand sia....if din bargain then we are being slaughter!lol...then nt very nice somemore...my champedak worse!!!!$5 for one champedak....i spent so much effort in opening it then end up inside only SIX SEEDS!!!!!OMG!!!!!so expensive lor!!!!!i remember the last time i really very heng to bought one champedak at $4.50 and inside got 22 seeds of fruit...so rare....now i know...oh yar...i muz go and read up on how to choose champedak so that next time can buy one that's more worth it...haha....my mum very hiong sia....last night after she saw that SIX seeds she immediately say wanna go back and scold the person whom she trusted to help us choose...that seller also suay lar...haha....then i went back with her and then we got back a dollar and another box of durian!!!lol....mum best!haha...

ok lar...going out for food le..hungry man....now 11 le and still haven eat breakfast.... =X

Still In Love9:54 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Human r simple? why aint i?

Looking at my previous post...there seems to be many things i left out...the tissue box cover i gave him...so cute...i also forgot to take a photo of it....hmmm...that tissue box cover...gave him le then realised it's a wrong choice of gift...i think i was too obsessed with choosing things concerning pigs and cows such that i forgot his allergy to dust....to me...i was thinking: he uses tissue very often...so get him a tissue box cover is the best! cos whenever he take tissue from the tissue box...he will have to think of me....arh....but i forgot...that soft-toy-like tissue cover could accumulate dust and eventually the tissue he take out from there will be dusty as well...aiyo...blur me lor....hais...duno why everytime when i try to do something to its best....something muz go wrong to make me feel incompetent de...wat's up with me man...

i use to believe that life is always fair...when u experience something good...u'll experience an equal amt of bad things as well...but why muz all my bad things be linked to my good things??? isn't there anything that have only good and no bad?

today...woke up late!!it's a short day....jus 2 hr of lesson....got a long day to rest for me...i shld wake up at 8...leave at 9 and reach sch at 10 for the lab class...end up....9:38 then woke up...rush up rush down....9:50 left hse le....ain't i fast! cannot decide if i shld take taxi....then in the end nvr take....reach sch at ard 10:45....they finished doing 2 out of 3 experiments le....kindof feel left out cos i din participate....i know it's my fault....and y the hell i cant wake up on time...???!

then after the experiment...went club room with carol...see if her dear can make it for lunch with her....if nt then can ask her be my lunch mate...haha...but too bad....din wanna be light bulb also...being a light bulb is one of the thing i hate most....=( then jus when i decided to go home and eat ta bao food...yay...saw jun han....ask him company me go eat....then waited for him to go print his tutorial for his class later....then went techno edge....end up reach there....so many ppl...so still ta bao in the end....-_- nvm...at least got company...if come home have to face my maid...and brother....i'll sure feel super irritated de....nowadays my parents are always busy with their sunrider career....even now...they are out for sunrider classes....i know they are working hard to earn more money for the family....but nowadays they dun really have time for us anymore...for my case...it may be my fault cos i have too many activities, sch and work going on....but my brother?jus on sunday...i purposely ask my mum if my brother's test is the next day....she got to hesistate for quite some time before telling me yes....and the "yes" was not even with confidence.....my dad....always indulging my bro with games and play thing....sometimes i wonder if he cares about his studies...how come he can always dun get him to study....i really dun understand....is it because he feel that young boys are lidat de(play while he can then study can pass can liao)....or he feel that my brother can score flying colors even without studying? the fact is...when he was in primary 2....he can already fail his subjects.....which i really duno how he did that...i think he is spoilt by my dad le....everytime he din do well...my parents would say i never teach him well....how come all the responsibility land on my shoulders when he is jus my brother?? doesnt parents have any part to play????how would my brother ever sit down and study when im the only one who's asking him to do that???? if im a kid...my parents dun really ask about my homework....then this stupid sister keep asking me to study study study......i'll also chose to ignore her words and continue playing....cos i know my parents will back me up if anything happens....i really give up le....i dun feel like spending anymore effort in teaching him....not even abit....the more i teach....the more dishearted i am....haiz.....these few days is his test....CA1...nowadays i see him watch tv....play computer....i feel so much like scolding him.....he keep thinking he is very old and can run his own life le....argh....but what is he doing????sometimes i even hope that he will do very very very badly for this time round's test such that he will learn his lesson.....shucks!

today when having meal with jun han outside club room at one of the tables...we chatted here and there....somehow i realise quite abit about myself....even thou this is my blog....im nt even truthful to it....there are many things in me....all hidden....deeply inside me....that no one knows....i cant face alot of things....im jus running away....avoiding everything that is to my disadvantage....many times i wan to be truthful...but because of my selfishness....because i scare to lose things that belongs to me...i kept them in my heart....last time....in my world...there is only right or wrong....i would do all the right things and avoid all the wrong things.....duno since when....right and wrong no longer have a clear line to separate them....i still dun have the courage to face many wrongs i've done....and everyday im commiting more wrongs....i think if im a christian....i would be those called "sinner" bah....i used to be a very simple person....but as i grow up....i came across more things....more things which i know yet i cant say....helping ppl keeping secrets....helping myself keep secrets....the burden is really heavy....also...maybe im a coward....many things....many unhappiness in me....might be able to be solved if i had jus say them out when they happened....yet i chose to keep quiet....i dun like arguements...i dun like to confront people....so the things i dun like just happen again and again....my tolerance level is dropping....but im unable to let it out either....i duno the consequences....im not confident at all...and i dun do things im not confident in....maybe becos im scare of failures....i begin to hate myself more and more....because...im no longer the weijuan who can face everything truthfully.....

Still In Love9:48 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007

V-Day Post

This post is late by almost 2 weeks!!! omg...haha...mainly because im quite tied up nowadays...tired...and yesterday even worse....dishearted....haiz...really duno wat to do about my lil brother...that feeling....sux....shall not talk about this since this shld be a happy happy post...

Anyway had a great v-day celebration this year with darling...it's the first v-day we had after we got together...and also our 1 year anniversary...darling was especially nice to me during the v-day period sia...not say now not nice lar..but nicer during the vday period...lolz...i remember last year v-day we both still nt together yet...but that day was very memorable...cos we also got together on that day itself....it was the first proper v-day dinner we had together...his gift...a photo album of our past...most valuable gift to me now...and not forgetting the thing he did nt too long before that was also touching to the max....ok...back to now....haha...we did 2 things...which brings back 2 sweet memories...2 same thing with a difference of 1 year...the v-day celebratoin & the esplanade fireworks...both brings back great memories...haha....last year's v-day was at swensen...haha...the feeling was nervous + nervous....cos im dating this guy who's not my bf on valentine's day...lol...it was also my first ever v-day dinner with anyone!!lol...that day, he went to pick me up from my house then we causeway point together...queued for very very long with our rumbling stomach before we got our seats...haha...then last year firework...also went together when we were not together....the feeling of going again this year...thou nt as great as last year...maybe cos we got to rush off right after the firework(i understand dear...but cant help feeling "not as good as last year" but it's still good!...not to worry =D)...both year was good...jus last year better...haha...

This year v-day celebration was on sunday...3 days prior to the actual day...cos we predict that that day will surely have alot of ppl trying to find a place to eat + will be more expensive...so we went gallery by the straits on sunday...firstly to avoid the crowd....secondly im working on the actual v-day...so paisei...haha...

Firstly on sunday...
Met darling at 12noon...he came to my house...went shopping with me and sisterzz til ard 5plus...poor darling...haha...think it's his first time shopping with so many girl bah...can see the tiredness on his face yet no complaints...haha...so thankful...before the shopping even start...he treat we all to pizza hut!! haha..wana "buy over" my sisters...lol...funny sia him...then we went separate ways with my sisters for our long-planned dinner...a place with great view...shall let the pictures speak...hee...the food was great as well...haha!! everything was great!!lol..

Next on wednesday itself...the actual v-day...
Worked from 8-5:30pm...then jus before i leave...darling sms me to leave later cos he's still stucked in his base...bt cos i cant work as and when i wan...i packed to leave the workplace...when i was about to leave...my aunt(the receptionist of my company) called my workstation...say got something to pass to me...im like blurred...bt cos it's nt very unusual so i went to punch card and went to the reception...and to my surprise...many were crowding around this bouquet of flower...then my aunt say:"eh..this one for u." then i was wondering:who went flower arrangement class then dun wan their bouquet of flower? lol....im sooooo wrong...it was from him....lol...made a fool of myself...haha...i was sooooo paisei...yet with happiness gushing in me...lol...at first i tot it's from some flower arranging lesson becos my colleague serene was having this flower arrangement class not too long ago and quite a number of ppl participate..haha...so made me confused....and also never expect darling to give me flowers also...and most of all....to my company!!omg...he dun even know where's my workplace is situated lor!!lol...super surprised...super happy...then went to meet him at yishun north point...soooooo he bluffed me about being stucked in base...he jus wanna delay me from leaving the office...haha...cos the flower delivery was delayed....lol...and the most exaggerating thing is that it was late by 3.5 hour...lol...after i met him, we had a simple dinner at yishun food court...i think im too overwhelmed with happiness liao...haha...not hungry lor....so only buy a bowl of fish slice soup...then went for the movie "just follow law"....funny funny...got luff...got tears...great show....typical jack neo's show...haha...then after that went to sembawang's sun plaza for cheesecake...we exchanged our gift...then he sent me home...everything was perfect....haha...perfect day....filled with lots and lots of happiness!!!haha!!below are some photos to help me give a clearer picture of everything i've said...hee...muackz to darling!

Our v-day dinner on sunday....look at the spread of food!!!woah!!!...and not forgetting the 2 sweet coconut...haha...

my incomplete v-day prezzie for him...all hand-made clay thingy...haha...make til my hand's infection came back sia....big sacrifice!!haha...jus kidding...forgetful me forgot to take a picture of the completed work!!argh!!lol...

My prezzie from him...first DKNY watch....guess it's the most expensive thing on my body nowadays...haha...such an exquisite watch...everytime i wear also scare of spoiling it...omg...haha...

That surprise bouquet!

last but not least....the mini-card for my wallet...hand-made by him...sweet...hee...the background & pic were both taken at where we had our v-day dinner...haa...so sweet so sweet!!

--juan...going to slp...filled with happiness jus by recalling wat happened...hee--

Still In Love11:21 PM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

*happy happy post!*

Haha...purposely come and blog second time today cos darling is sooooo sweet....i jus love it when he does things secretly and eventually i'll find out that kind...of cos muz be sweet things lar...if bad things i think i'll bash him up! (violent violent *haha*) ok now for the thing he did:

he went into my ivle account and set a reminder in my organiser on our 1yr anniversary (which is v-day itself) and left a mini message...he's sooooo sweet!!love him to bits!!haha...

he say he did that long ago...aint me blur?haha...muz be the side effect of hanging out too much with blurcow! hee...

and hor...remember that newspaper collection day...my pants tore!!!finally can upload the pic...here it goes...

haha...so pai sei that day...luckily got jia wei's big big shirt to cover it as i walk! thanks lao da...haha...and thanks joseph for bringing and extra pants (thou too big..haha...) to let me change into temporarily...

oh yar...and here's the donut factory's donut which darling queued 2 and a half hour with me...haha...

they are damn nice!!!!haha....

Still In Love11:30 PM

tml's v-day celebration! yay!!

Tml's the long-waited v-day celebration...haha...as this year's celebration is during a weekday so we are celebrating it in advance on a Sunday(tml)...then on actual day shall jus go for a simple dinner...hee...happy happy...wonder what good plan is darling coming up with tml...looking forward to see him early early...best is the moment i woke up!thou i know nt quite possible...haha...

yesterday went to a talk...on man & woman...titled "men are like waffles and women are like spaghetti"...it's a very interesting talk by a couple "bill and pam" they have been married since 1987 til now...raised 3 kids and have very successful relationships in the family..they talked about the differences between man and woman...the way they put it across is very interesting with some experience from their daily life...the talk was humorous and lively...if gt chance to go again with darling i sure go one!haha...it's organised by SDU for tertiary students and they encouraged us to get married early and so on...promoting long lasting relationships...i feel that such talks are really interesting to us(tertiary students) because we are in the stage that all these issues are very appealing...haha...after understanding more about relationships, many tots went thru my mind...but there's one thing i understood from yesterday: to a man, the relationship is good until we girls destroy it by overwhelming him with all the relationship issues...anyway they usually dun think alot about is there any problem with their relationship, however girls are constantly processing the status of their relationship...so the point here is: darling pls dun blame me for thinking too much cos it's jus in girls...and the point to all girls out there: do not blame ur bf for not thinking whether is there any problems with the relationship becos they are really dumb...lol...as in they wun keep thinking about their relationship because they process their life in boxes just like waffles and relationship is jus one of the boxes..and in order for them to move on in life...they cannot keep thinking about the thing in that box, otherwise...they cant do anything else...haha...it's really not that they dun care about the relationship...yea...

yesterday darling did a very sweet thing...maybe to some people it's already something taken for granted but to me, it's something that really brightens up the remaining of my day...darling called me right after my class to company for dinner before the talk...it's really sweet of him to do so...such a pleasant surprise...im loving him more and more! *shy shy* haha...

the day before yesterday went to chinatown with clx2 and jo after work...in hope to get some new year clothing end up all i bought home was food!!argh...haha...i wanna slim down more before new year!!!hurmp!!bought yam paste, chocolate with real fruit(strawberry), chocolate beancurd!!!omg!!haha...

went tuition today...i feel that my students are getting more and more "lan san" as in like do things very easily say duno duno...aiyo...haven even think hard lor....and i muz ask and ask then they'll show that they know...sometimes abit frustrating...bt still ok now...duno wat will happen in future sia...haha...god bless me...lol...

now listening to the audio cd that i bought from the talk yesterday...$10...alot of those visual image came back...haha...same talk...same examples...still very funny...haha...also bought the book titled "single men are like waffles and single women are like spaghetti" @ $12...so total spent $2(on the talk) + $10 + $12 on the talk thing...haha...bt if it brings in alot of benefits to our relationship skills i guess it's worth it...haha...

Still In Love8:46 PM

Friday, February 02, 2007

Sianz...

Mood now actually quite depressed...feel abit useless...and my leg is still aching...just now spent the whole evening shopping for v-day present...argh...irritating...so vex over this...walked the whole of bugis and then to bishan..still no idea of what to give...doesnt feel good about anything...super irritating...today saw yenni and fei doing their v-day present...one mth ago benedict already thinking of wat to gif...now only left 2 more weeks and still i duno wat to give..i hate myself man...how come everyone seems to know what they wan to give and i have no idea at all????im really having a bad headache...im quite stressed over this...feel so useless man...last time de me not lidat de...remember i used to have alot of ideas...still remember the v-day 2 years ago...the present idea jus came naturally....now i think sooooo hard and nothing comes to my mind...have so many worries on my mind...it's gonna be my first v-day gift for him after we got together...it's also gonna be our 1st year anniversary...it's such a important day...im so worried that the gift i choose is jus nt good enuff...nothing fits in the ocassion lei....what should i do....sianz.............!!!!!!

today haven eat dinner yet cos came home too late then dun feel like eating her cooking...then actually wanted to eat maggi mee one but think too late...haiz...then this morning skipped breakfast also cos woke up too late...that makes the chicken rice in the noon as my only meal of the day...im nt in any kind of slimming programme sia...how come i eat so little!!!grrr....!!!really no appetite recently...where's that tan chi wei juan....haiz...

today was very blur...tot the talk on "single man are like waffles and single woman are like spaghetti" is today...so inform my mum that i cant company her to buy the new year deco le...then i call and msg and ask those going on where they meeting and so on...end up fei helped me realised that it's next friday...arh!!then called mum again to tell her to wait for me to buy the new yr deco with her...then last min feel like getting a v-day gift...then end up call AGAIN to ask her nt to wait...i'm so ma fan!!!

im so very very tired now...feel like sleeping...tml gt to go teach tuition and after that go do newspaper collection for one of the fund raising event...think i shld go slp le...and hope last night's nightmare wun happen in real life and also hope that i dun get that dream again!sleep!

Still In Love10:20 PM